Hard Enough

Recovery

Beth's POV 

    The feeling of a soft hand on my shoulder is what awoke me. When I woke up, my neck hurt from the way I had fallen asleep in the chair. Sitting up in the chair I saw the doctor who I could only assume was Dr. Morris stand in front of me.

    " Are you the guardian of Amora Cartos?" He said softly as if he talked to loud he would wake someone up. 

     " Um, yes I am her Aunt Beth Cartos. How did everything go? Is she going to be okay?" I ask with so many more questions I want to ask beating at my skull.

    " Yes she is stable. It was touch and go for a while but she came out okay. You are aware of what happened here tonight right, Ms. Cartos?" he said as he was sitting down in the chair next to me.

    " Please, call me Beth. Um, from what the nice nurse told me Amora attempted suicide." I mumbled just loud enough for him to hear. 

    " Uh well yes, Beth that is part of it. Amora had sever blood not only from the self inflicted wounds on her wrists but its appears that she stayed standing until she passed out. When hitting the floor she also tore the stitches from her recent accident. With as much blood as she lost it is possible that she might not wake.  It is possible that her body will reject the new blood from the blood transfusion. We can give her 15 days to wake up but after that she will have to be transferred to a place that is capable to hold her longer." he said putting his soft hand on my shoulder again.

    " So what you are saying is that Amora may never wake up? If she does will there be any kind of therapy she will have to go through?" I say as I stand at the door of her room looking at her lay there with all the machines surrounding her bedside.

    " Well If she wakes we will have do take some CT scans to see if her brain is functioning correctly and before she can leave she will have to get clearance from the psychic counselor. She will be put up on the psychic floor of the hospital until she is cleared. She will be bed ridden  until her wounds from the accident are completely healed. If she wakes within the next few days she could be out of here within the next month or so." he said putting his hands in his lab coat.

    " Ill have to make arrangements in my work schedule so I can take care of her little brother Liel until she is released. They are suppose to be living with my ex husband. Ill see what I can do about getting the day shift at the clinic so I'm at work during the school hours." I reply putting my hand on my forehead knowing this was going to be a rough month not just for me but for Liel and Amora too. 

    " Beth if you need anything let me know. Anything at all and you give me a call. Okay?" he said softly with sympathy while handing me a card with his pager number and home number printed on it.

    " I will. Thank you for saving her life. She isn't like this I promise, I think she just feels like she should have died with them. Almost as if she is all alone. I know what she is feeling, her father and I lost both of our parents at a young age as well and it was rougher on me more then my brother." I said tears welling up in my eyes as if it were only yesterday I saw dad on the floor bloody.

    " If you don't mind me asking, what happen to your parents?" he questioned with a concerned look. Knowing he could see me crying I didn't try to keep it hidden.

    " No I don't mind," I said turning around to sit in my chair I was sleeping in. Whipping the tears away I took a deep breath. " I was 6 years old that year. My brother was staying the night with his best friend..."

Flashback: Little Beth's POV 

   " Mommy will you come tuck me into bed and read me a bedtime story?" I said jumping up and down. Mom just looked at me with the biggest smile and then looked at dad.

" Go on up to your bed room I'll be up in a minute." she said looking back at me giggling and I jump up and down then running to the stairs. When I retch the bottom of the stairs fixing to run up stairs. My dad turns around on the couch and just looks at me before saying.

    " What no goodnight hugs and kisses for daddy? Now I'm sad." he says crossing his arms and making a pouting face. Laughing I run back to the couch and jump in his lap and give him the biggest hug. " I love you princess." he says giving me a kiss on the forehead.

    " I love you too daddy." I said getting up with mommy and then going up stairs. I open the door to my bedroom and jump up on my bed.

    " Okay tiger, lay down so I can tuck you in. Tonight, no bedtime story though. Remember at dinner we agreed you could stay up an extra hour but that meant no bedtime story?" Mom said tucking me in then giving me a kiss on the forehead. 

    " I remember mommy, I love you. I see you at breakfast time in the morning." I say to mommy as she shut the light out and before closing the door she blew me a kiss. That was her way of telling me goodnight, I love you. I rolled over and feel asleep as soon as I closed them. The sound of glass breaking woke me up. I sat up in bed and that is when I heard mommy scream. jumping out of bed and running down stairs I saw daddy dead on the floor. 

    Terrified I just stood there until I felt someone touch my shoulder. Jumping in fear I noticed it was mommy. She put her finger up to her lips to shush me. 

    " Tiger, I need you to get out of here. Run to the nice lady next door and don't look back." she whispered. 

    " But mommy, daddy is hurt. I cant leave you here." As I said this a man with a knife came around the corner. Mommy pushed me toward the door and screamed for me to leave. I turned around and ran as fast as I could to the next door neighbor.

End of flashback   

    " When the cops arrived the killer had gotten away and both of my parents were dead. They found the killer a week later robbing the Union Bank on 5th Avenue." I said looking at Dr. Morris then back at the door to Amora's room.

    " I'm so sorry you had to go through that, I would wish that upon my worst enemy." He said looking at the floor.

    " Like I said I can relate to how she felt when she did this. That's why when she wakes up from this I'm going to tell her that things will get better she just has to push through. It will take a while but she needs to believe that it will all be okay and that no matter what her parents are proud of her and how far she has already come in life. They would do anything to keep her alive and to be here to see her graduate and go to college." I said walking into her room and sitting in the chair beside her bed and grabbing her hand and holding it tightly while kissing it softly. " She will wake from this. Maybe not today but she will, I know she will."

    " How do you know she will?" he said with a confused look.

    " Because I have to have faith. I have to believe she will or I might just break down. Losing so many people within two days is to much for me. So I will take a few days off of work, arrange for her parents funeral, go get Liel and bring him up her to see her. I have to believe she will wake up because other then Liel she is all I have left." I reply while getting my jacket off the chair and grabbing my keys out of my jacket pocket and walking out the hospital room door. 

    She has to make it. I thought, she just has to!