Hard Enough

He loves me?

Amora's POV

     The minutes I opened my eyes I knew where I was. The arm around my waist, and the warm smell of honey suckles and vanilla filled my lungs, I knew I was in Kyle's bed. That smell never gets old, I get up from his bed as quietly as I could, then I walk over to his dresser and get one of his t-shirts out of the drawer. Looking over at him one last time, he seems peaceful, calm as if nothing could ever hurt him, but I know he will be a wreck when I leave today. Closing the bathroom door as quietly as I can not to wake him up, I hop in the shower. 

     Wrapping my hair up in a towel, I pick up the toothbrush that I left here, meanwhile Kyle walks into the bathroom where I'm at. 

     " Good morning, I see you have found my t-shirt you love so much." he says while picking up his toothbrush and giggling. Sometime he makes me rethink his sexuality, the way he looks at me, I love him but he is gay... Honestly he would be the only one I needed if he wasn't gay and he liked me back. Accepting that has been manageable over the years but it hasn't changed the way I feel about him.

    " Yes, I did find it. You didn't think you could hide it from me, did you? I will always find it!" I say with determination, laughing at my goofiness. He just looks at me and continues brushing his teeth. 

    " Are we gonna talk about you leaving?" He says hopelessly. I could tell it was hurting him. I felt guilty deep down, I felt like I was losing the only person I had left. I am losing my way here. Sudden numbness takes over my body, I am hurting the only boy I have ever loved, not intentionally though.

    " Kyle, you know I have no choice but to move. This was my parent's wishes and if I stay, with me being under the age of 18, I could lose Liel to children services. I'll be back after I turn 18, I promise you that." I say with a small tear falling down my cheek, holding my head down so Kyle don't see me crying at the thought of leaving him. 

Kyle's POV

     This is your chance to tell her Kyle, come on you can do it. If she doesn't feel the same way, yes, it will be awkward but you need to tell her now or you might never get to tell her how you really feel. 

     " Amora, I have something I need you to know before you leave." I say picking her chin up so she is looking at me. I wipe the tears off her cheek with me thumb. I close my eyes take a deep breath, here goes nothing. " I love you, I have since we were younger. I have dated men all my life because I never felt the same about a girl, like I feel for you. You are the only girl that has my heart, the only girl I have ever felt this way about." I say looking into her eyes, then the unexplainable happens.

 Amora's POV

    " Amora, I have something I need you to know before you leave." Kyle says in a soft voice as he picks up my chin so I am looking at him. My heart is racing, what does he need me to know? " I love you, I have since we were younger. I have dated men all my life because I never felt the same about a girl, like I feel for you. You are the only girl that has my heart, the only girl I have ever felt this way about." Kyle says looking into my eyes with a small hint of hope in them. We stand there for a moment then I do the one thing I have wanted to do for a very long time.

    Leaning forward, I press my lips on his gently and wrap my arms around his neck. I pull back from the kiss and look into his eyes. 

    " I love you too, Kyle." I say before Kyle kisses me back, this time passionately. He picks me and places me on the bathroom counter. We make-out for a while there then he picks me backup and takes me to his bed. When he lays me on his bed he pulls back and waits for me to give him my permission. I kiss him, letting him know that I give him my permission. He takes my shirt off and begins to kiss my neck. 

     A small moan escapes my mouth and he nibbles my neck a little bit, I flip us over and look down at him and kiss him hard but sweetly. A little time passes and we are now laying under the covers still naked. I have my head laid on his bare chest, and my hand laid on his abs. 

     " Where are your parents at?" I say softly

     " They went to the office early this morning, something about the systems at the office needed to be rebooted before everyone comes in for work." he mumbles back.

    " Why didn't you tell me sooner about your feelings for me? I mean you had to have known about how I felt about you. I tried so hard to hint it off to you." I giggle a little while looking up at him.

  For a moment he just starred at me but then he got up and went to his dresser and grabbed a small box off it and walked back towards me. My mind is going to so many places at once. 

    " Close your eyes baby girl." He says which makes me smile. I could get use to that coming from his lips. He pulls my hair out of the way and gently puts a necklace around my neck then kisses me shoulder softly. Looking at him first and kissing him, I then look down at the necklace. It was a blue topaz stone with wings as the setting in silver and each wing had my parents names on it. 

   " I love it!" I scuffle my words with tears falling freely from my eyes. Kyle pulled me into his chest and we laid back down. Before I know it, I have fallen back asleep. After all it is still like 4 in the morning. I still have a while before I have to meet my aunt at my house or should I say my old house. This is gonna be a rough year.... I thought to myself as I drifted off to a deep but safe sleep.