Hard Enough

This Is Not Goodbye Forever

Kyle's POV

   Hating the feeling I have in the pit of my stomach, I lay in bed and stare at the ceiling holding her. So deep into my thoughts of what could happen between when she leaves and if she will even come back. The ring of Amora's phone brought me out of my daze. 

    Amora jolts awake startled, " Hello? Yes aunt Beth that is okay. That also gives us time to get ready and spend time together before Liel and I leave. We will see you later." she said hanging the phone up. " That was Aunt Beth. She said that she is going to take Liel out for a fun day. You know to try and calm him down a bit." she said in a tired voice. I could tell she is so drained, this isn't like her at all and i hate that all this has happened to her.

    Putting my hand under her chin i have her look at me. " Love, What would you like to do to pass the time and make the most of it?" I say looking in her gorgeous eyes. " We can do anything you want, as long as it's with you I don't mind a bit." I try to hold back the tears because i know this could be the last time I see her for awhile.

   " Well I could go for some food because my stomach feels like it's gonna eat itself." She smiled and let a small giggle out. " With my stitches I really cant do anything big. Maybe we could go to the movies. Or just go get our favorite snacks and cuddle on the couch and watch movies, since your parents are gone for a few days." She let out in almost a whisper, letting her head fall softly.

   " Honey," I say getting her to look back at me, " I hate this too, but we can make it through this okay. Look how far we have made it so far." I say trying to comfort her. A tear streamed down her cheek, and I just pulled her in. " We got this love." At that moment I'm not sure if I was trying to convince her or myself.  A little bit of time passed and we got up and got dressed, an on our way we went to the diner we went to all the time. Pulling into the parking lot, I pulled into the parking spot and asked, " Are you sure you want to go in? we can go somewhere with a drive thru." 

   She took a deep breath, " Yeah, if this is the last time we eat together I want it to be at our favorite place that we have shared so many memories together." The words " This is the last time," really knocked a hard blow to my chest. I nodded my head, got out, and opened her door helping her out of my car. People staring as we make our way to a booth. We sat there an ate and talked about the good and hard times for what seemed like forever. After, we went to the store got our favorite drinks, snacks, and blankets. 

   Getting in the car after putting the bags in the back, I start the car and start driving the opposite way of my house. 

   " I thought we were going back to yours to watch movies and cuddle on the couch." Amora asked curious as to where I was going. Looking over at her for a split second with a big smile on my face, not saying a single word I look back at the road. " Okay, Mr. Secretive. Fine don't tell me." She said giggling a little bit. For the rest of the ride we just rode in silence, with only the radio playing. 

   Going down this one end road, we finally make it to the secret spot I have went to during every crisis. We have never went here together, but now seemed like the best time to show her it. " Here we are my love." I say putting the car in park, and getting out to help her out of the car. 

   " Where exactly is 'here' ?" she said with a look of confusion on her face. When she got out her facial expression changed. " Kyle, This view is beautiful!" she said with the biggest smile and for a second I thought I could almost see the light back in her eyes. 

   " I know, I found it driving one night trying to clear my head when we had gotten into an argument. I wanted to bring you hear when I finally got up the nerve to tell you that I was in love with you but now seems like the right time." I said lowering my head hiding the tear falling down my face. 

   " Well now you know I am in love with you too, but look this goodbye isn't forever baby. When I turn 18, mom and dad's house is mine and the moment everything is finalized, I will be back. Its only a few months." Amora said choking back the sobs. She leaned in and took me in for a deep reassuring kiss. " This is not goodbye forever my love."