Endless Anti-Romantic

Chapter 24: Moving Forward

Chapter 24: Moving Forward

After Logan and I kissed for hours I pulled away feeling better. I talked to him about it, about the possibility of us healing each other. Of course at first he was shocked. But now, 9 months later. Logan and I are a couple. I haven't been this happy since before I left Paris... Before going to the 'Of Mice&Men' concert nearly 3 years ago. Before Zoe and Marcus. Before when Connor and I were friends.

Marcus lost custody or Lyla, but he still visits her... Actually, she visits him. He's currently in a mental hospital for psychopathy. He was a danger to himself and everyone around him. Logan and I visit him often as well. He's pretty pissed off at Logan and I for turning on him and dating each other. We didn't date at the time. We dated about 3 months from the night we kissed. So we have been a couple for 6 months.

As of today, Logan is 1 month clean of self harm. So to celebrate Logan and I are going to the fair and I'm so excited.

"Thanks." Logan says to the lady in the stand. He grabs his change and shoves it in his pocket. He turns to me with a smile. "Ready?" I nod and take his hand in mine. When Logan and I kiss it's no longer a forced thing. Now, both of us are enjoying it more.

"There's the beautiful couple!" Layla yells running up to us. She's been supportive of Logan and I and I couldn't be more thankful. "How are you guys?"

"We're going good." I say looking up at Logan. He looks down at me with a smile.

"Doing great." He leans down and gives me a quick kiss.

"Hey, what are you doing here?" I turn and ask Layla, "I thought you said you had to pick up your sister at the airport." She laughs and shakes her head.

"I did. But instead I was surprised when he came up to my door."

"He?" Logan and I ask confused.

"Jacque!" She yells with a huge smile. I turn and see an adorable crooked smile.

"Jacque!" I release Logan's hand and run to give Jacque a hug. "Oh my god you're here." He laughs and hugs me back.

"That I am. I've decided to come down here for college."

"And to be with me." Layla says with a pouty expression. Jacque pulls away and kisses Layla.

"Of course. How could I forget that?" He turns to Logan as I grab his hand. "Is this Connor?" I bite my lip and shake my head. I've talked to Logan about Connor. He's fine with it, except the part where he hurt me.

"I'm Logan." He holds out his hand and Jacque shakes it.

"Nice to meet you. Jacque."

"I assumed when Naomi ran to you screaming your name." I laugh and slap his chest lightly.

"It's nice to see you finally happy Naomi." I can't help but smile at Jacque. He saw me after I had the whole conflict with Connor and Marcus, never really happy.

"It's nice to finally be happy."

"Shit." We all turn to Layla.

"What?" I ask with concern.

"Nomi?" My throat dries up and I feel my heart clench in pain. Logan's hand squeezes mine lightly, bringing me a little bit of peace. I turn around and see that Connor looks amazing. He looks healthy. Happy.

"Hi Con." Logan kisses the top of my head.

"I'll let you two talk."

"No, I don't wanna ruin your date."

"No worries." Logan says with a smile. He kisses my hand and walks away with Layla and Jacque with his hands in his pockets. He is amazing. I turn back to Connor.

"You look great." He says with a smile.

"Thanks. So do you. You look healthy." He laughs and nods.

"Yeah I've been straightening my shit out."

"That's good."

"How's your dad?" I smile a bit wider.

"He's doing great. His wedding with Tegan is next week so we're both really excited."

"I bet." He look up and bites his lip. "That's your boyfriend?" I look back with a smile. He's laughing at something Jacque must have said. I can't help but laugh a little. The way his nose scrunches up is something I love about him.

"Yeah. Logan." I turn back to Connor. "He's actually Marcus' older brother."

"Really? Wow." He swallows hard and clears his throat. "He treats you well?" I nod with a smile.

"He treats me really well."

"That's good." He shoves his hands in his pockets, "Look, Nomi. I'm really sorry with how I left things. It was wrong of me to leave at all, let alone right after we-"

"Yeah you don't have to bring it up." The thought still hurts.

"Yeah. Well I was just hoping we could start over." I smile and nod.

"Of course." He opens his arms for a hug and I gladly accept.

"I love you Nomi." I feel a tear fall from my face.

"I love you too Con." And I do. But the person I'm totally in love with... Is Logan Colt.

The great thing about loving Logan isn't that we're both messed up or that we've been through hardships. We both find new ways to heal each other. New ways to show love. Intimacy, not sex. Through the whole 9 months of knowing each other, Logan and I never had sex. When we kissed, we never went farther than our clothes coming off. Underwear excluded of course, and that felt good. Intimacy, cuddling and talking like we didn't almost have sex. No sex, who would have thought a guy would be all for it?

Well Logan is. And that is one of the many things I love about him.