Randomness 2. The sequel no one wanted.

2018

^yes, it's a rwby song, but if you have the chance, could you listen to it? i was listening to it this morning and i realized how much this song relates to this year and how i'm gonna be in the coming year. some parts don't apply to that, but either way, it's an awesome song^

Welp, it's officially 2019 for me (time zones are w e i r d) so why not have a chapter (most likely gonna be long. edit: yea, it's long-) about this year and how it's shaped me and impacted me to be who I am right now. A lot has happened this year, and if possible, I'll do my best to not give a lot of details about the more... troubling parts of it. Both for me and for y'all. I'm gonna start this off positive, it'll get negative for a bit, and then it'll end positive.

So let's start with the earliest month I remember from this year: March. At Christmas 2017, I got a ticket to see Hamilton on Broadway! My sisters best friend had won 3 tickets but originally the 3rd ticket wasn't for the. The person it was for couldn't go so I got the ticket for Christmas and because of that one ticket, my parents planned a whole week in New York! (we also got to see wicked and the lion king on broadway that week-)

About a week before our trip, I found out about a game. A game that changed my life. Doki Doki Literature Club. Because of the game, I got more active on wattpad, made so many friends, and it helped me deal with more serious topics in life.

During our trip, I had my own room, so at night I'd be on my phone looking up Doki Doki stuff and I found the 'Ask Doki Doki Literature Club' Book by my Canadian twinsie, Harper. (Tagging her) uwu And because of that book I made so many friends like Ace and Sophia and more people I can't remember the names of because I'm an idiot-

Moving on from March, at the very end of the month, my older brother proposed to his girlfriend! And even thought the preparation for the wedding has been hellish pretty much this entire year, I have to remember. The wedding is next Sunday. We're almost there, we've come this far, and things will be better when it's all over.

I turned 15 this year, so that's pretty cool. I got to go to Colorado for a mission trip. I became part of the worship team in my student ministry and I've gotten to lead a couple songs by myself this year! I feel like I've improved in my singing, art, and writing this year. I got a solo in a song in my choir back in April and I got a solo for the multigenerational Christmas choir at my church (if anyone wants to see that vid, lemme know-)

A lot of good came out of this year but, unfortunately, you must take the good AND the bad.

And there was a lot of bad this year...
The wedding planning in my family, August, my low self-worth getting lower at some points, I won't go into a lot of detail with all of these but let's just say there was... a lot. I'm a firm believer that everything happens for a reason, but this year shook that belief. A lot...

But, here we are. The end of the year. We can start anew in 2019, with the lessons we've learned and pain we've gone through (did not mean for that to rhyme but hey-)

A lot of things happened this year that made me want to skip 2018 entirely... but it's better to focus on the positives! I mean, if 2018 never happened, I never would've seen Hamilton, met tons of amazing friends, both online and offline, became obsessed with DDLC, RWBY, Camp Camp, etc, gotten closer to my older sister, improved my self image, and gotten my first boyfriend!

Yes, 2018 was crappy, like really really bad, but it was also amazing! There was so many things going on and I've learned so much and gained so many experiences! So, here's to 2019. To more experiences, to more hardships and to more triumphs. I love you all, thank you all for staying by my side throughout all this, and enjoy 2019 you beautiful people out there!! And remember: Pobody's Nerfect

-Meaghan ❤️