Divergent High

Chapter nine

Tris pov

I lay my head on Al's chest and he keeps an arm around my waist.

I just had sex with Al and it felt good. I felt good. I know I have to tell Tobias but that's a later thing.

"I'm sorry about all those things I said about you" Al tells me and I turn to him and peck his lips.

"It's okay. It's all the truth" I whisper getting up from his bed to put my clothes back on but he pulls me back down.

"I'm going to go to the college, I think it's the best idea" he says

"And I support that" I say

"I'm going to be okay. We're going to be okay" I say and he kisses my head.

Graduation is next week and prom is tomorrow. I don't get to walk with my class because I'm about to pop any day now so my diploma is going to be sent to my house.

"You know I have to tell Tobias right" I say to Al as I put my clothes back on

"I know" he says looking down sad.

Once Tobias finds out him and Al's friendship will probably be over and of course it was all my fault.

***

I asked Tobias to come over so we can talk.

He walks into my room with a big smile.

"There's my beautiful girl" he says giving me a kiss and I pull away, starting to cry.

He hugs me and I push him away.

"Tobias wait... please don't comfort me" I say

"Why what's going on" He ask

"I slept with Al" I say looking at him and he backs a few spaces away from me.

"You slept with him?" He ask confused

"I'm sorry" I say reaching for his hands but he pulls them away

"Why would you do that?" He ask hurt

"Because I ruin everything" I say

"No matter what I do I'm still going to hurt you" I add and he sighs

"Tris what are you talking about" he says and I wipe my tears away

"I'm just a mess" I say looking down

"I think I need a break" he says and I nod

"I knew when I did what I did this would happen. I'm ready. It's okay" I say and he looks at me with the same sad eyes Al looked at me with earlier

"Just give me time and let's see what's to happen in the future but I really don't want to be with you right now" he says

"Okay" I whisper

"Stop feeling bad for yourself. You keep getting inside your head" he says giving me one last kiss on the head and walking out of my room.

I thought he would be more upset but he took it better than I thought. I love Tobias and Al and I only want the best for them but for some reason I can't see myself being good for them.

I don't want to view myself that way but I do.

Short chapter again

I'm sorry but it will get better soon