Dear heart, why him? (#WATTYS2018)

Chapter 15

Silence

Mr and Mrs Rose hadn't said a word, Mr Rose had his head bent down and looking at the floor with one hand on Mrs Rose leg and the other balled up into a fist. Mrs Rose was just looking into space, pale faced like a ghost frozen. Feeling a bit upset myself i nudge Zack and whisper "wheres the bathroom?" this is a bit rude on my part but i need to sort myself out and hopefully when i come back down Mr and Mrs Rose will be some what better. 

Zack looks to poppys parents and whispers back "straight up the stairs and the first door on your right" standing up and heading for the stairs before the tears can even make an appearance, i take the turning and bardge straight into the room shutting the door. My breathing is coming out ragged and the anxiety building up in my chest is just too much, squeezing my eyes shut and sliding down the door i bring my knees up to my chest and duck my head trying to calm down before i have a full mental breakdown. 

Taking deep breaths i raise my head and its then that i realise im not in the bathroom, im in her room.. Poppy's room. Her room hasn't been touch its like their waiting for her to come back from a trip or something, her walls are a light purple littered with photos of friends and family, her floor a dark wood with a fuzzy white rug, with a dark wood desk in the left corner of the room with a macbook, books and some other little things littering the desk on the right side in the corner is her double bed with purple butterfly bedding with teddies laying along the bottom. 

Standing up i steady myself, i shouldnt be in here im tresspassing in a place that only her family should have accesse to but i cant bring myself to leave not yet. Taking a further step into her room the window in the middle of the room has the blinds shut blocking out any bit of sun, looking to the left side of the room opposite her desk is a clothes rack filled with clothes and bags, looking over to her desk the wall has picutres covering most of it, taking a closer look i notice Zack in most of them along with Mason and Poppy, they look so happy. Bringing my atttention to her laptop i lift the top up to be greeted with the lock screen, password needed.. of course. 

Not knowing any type of password she would use i dont attemant to give it a shot, instead i have a little look in her desk draws to just find what you'd expect paper, books, pens and marks. however the last draw has only a text book in so i try to shut it back up only for it to get jammed, brilliant this is all i need, i cant just leave it as they will know someone has been in here and the last thing i want is to upset anyone even more than i already have. So pushing will all my might but the blasted thing wont move. Checking to see that nothing is blocking i push my hand to the back to be greeted with what feels like a book? Pulling it out to find that it is in fact a little note book, flipping it over i notice it has Poppys name marked into the leather cover. 

Is this a diary of some sorts? Opening the first page i catch a glimps of hand writing - "Nor are you alright" My whole body freezes "SHIT" i whisper to myself shutting the bottom draw and stuffing the book down the back of my top i open the door and poke my head out making sure its clear, shutting the door behind me i head towards the stairs to see Zack about to head up. 

"Hey sorry i just needed a minute to catch myself, sorry for taking so long." i rush out feeling the panic pricking its way through my body, grabbing my hand Zack rushes down the stair and straight out the front door. A little worried and confused i pull my hand free to ask is everything is alright but Zack must have sensed the change within me as his grip tightens making it impossible for me to get free. 

"Z-Zack whats going on?" i ask my voice cracking at the start, spinning around to face me i see his eyes have changed and his whole body has tensed. Hes pissed, pissed to the point his body is on fire and his cheeks are flushed. Through gritteded teeth he says "This was a bad idea, we shoudnt have come" 

Compeletly confused on whats happened for him to behave like this i go to open my mouth to be cut off when he shakes his head at me and storms off leaving me outside poppys house. Watching him stalk away im torn between heading home and chasing after him. I decided to leave him be and head home thinking about what could have possibly happened while i was upstairs. 

Reaching my house i head straight upstairs and pull poppy's diary out, Holding it in my hands i feel the guilt for taking it and debate if i should read it or not. God knows what could be in this and how pissed Zack and her parents will be if they ever find out i have it. But i cant stop myself from opening and reading the first entry.

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