Dear diary, is that how i suppose to start this? Ugh.. It doesn't matter how i start it, not like anyone is going read it. But hey thats me Poppy Rose always overthinking every little thing. Let me start again.
Hey, i'm Poppy Rose and i have finally got my hands on a journal. I've been wanting one for months now. Just to write every little detail down, something for my eyes only. This is a place i can write whatever i want and not feel judged, being a 17 year old girl isn't easy. Honestly some of the things that go down in my school are just mind blowing. Heck most of my friends aren't very nice, i actually don't know why i hang around with them. guess i could push the blame on my older brother but then again he cant help being the 'king of the school' mega eye roll. It's funny because Mason isn't a horrible guy, its just a rep he has to keep up. How fucking stupid.
I miss the days when i was a nobody, my first year was the best i focused on my studies, i had kind friends and i spent a lot more time with Zack. But then my brother was a big deal so of course he felt like i should be seen in the same light, men and their ego. That's how i became friends with 'the popular group' in my year which mingled with my brothers year as well. FUN!
I guess i can't fully lie.. There is one decent thing that came with it... Justin Thomas <3
That boy does all sorts of thing to me i could honestly day dream about him all day. His messy light brown hair and them big beautiful blue eyes.. UGH! How can someone be that dreamy?? The only down fall is my brother hates him and his best friend Bryce i guess i cant blame mason when it comes to Bryce because he is a huge jerk but Justin isn't like that.. At first i thought their beef was over football. But according to my brother i should stay away from Justin as he is trouble.. Thats all i got, nothing else didn't explain it at all.
Big brothers suck!
I mean its ok for him to date queen bitch Jessica Summers. She's only nice to me because of my brother, i'm not stupid the girl hates me and any other female. Everything is such a big drama when it comes to her and from the start she was only using me to get close to my brother which worked. She doesn't even love my brother she's just using him for the social ladder. GET OVER YOURSELF! I've seen her at parties throwing herself at all the boys.. Mainly Justin.. UGH why does high school have to be such a cliche?
I wish i could go back to the days when it was just me, Mason and Zack. Before high school and Mason was a big deal.. The 3 of us use to have so much fun, always together.. I miss him, Zack that is, after i became friends with the IT group he kept his distance, we hardly spoke and never spent time together. It's no fun losing your best friend or yourself for that matter. I wanna say being friends with Jess didn't change me but that would be a lie, my style changed, my attitude changed heck my grades even changed and its all for the worst. All it took was 4months on my first year for it all to change, it's too late to go back now.
Jesus i moaning like a little brat, a lot of people have it a lot worse than poor little old me, Pop get over yourself. Time to stop living in the past and just be happy with the big popular life you have. Lets be honest i've always craved it a little deep down and Justin being my friend makes it all worth it. However it does make me wonder what will happen when my brother graduates in 2 years. Eh only time will tell i guess.
Woah.. Well that was a first entry, Poppy wasn't over the moon with the friends she had not that i can blame her Jess is a mega bitch. I also can't blame her for being attracted to Justin, he has the same effect on me. Like what is it about him that attracts girls? Jess, Poppy.. basically the whole female population.
Shutting poppy's journal i place it under my pillow and head to my bedroom window. The light from the street lights are the only thing to light the streets, the moon is full in the dark sky and the stars twinkle above, a slight breeze sways the trees and bushes in my neighbourhood. Taking a deep breath my mind goes to the Roses and Poppy's journal, theres just so much we all don't know and i'm scared to find out what poppy has filled her journal with. Should i just mind my own business? No it's too late for that now, i've taken the poor girls journal. Oh god what was i thinking? I stole from a girl who killed herself, if anyone finds out i'd be in huge trouble.
Ugh stressing out isn't going to change anything, the truth needs to come out sooner or later and i know theres a lot more to this and i'm going to find out the truth no matter what. For Poppy, for her family, for Zack.. For me.
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