Dear heart, why him? (#WATTYS2018)

Chapter 10

"Nora"

"Nooora"

"Jesus Nora! Wake up."

Rolling onto my back I slowly try to pry my eyes open. Which is short lived as I'm blinded by a bright bloody light. 

"Ugh, turn that bloody light off!" Soon the room turns dark and I can finally open my eyes. Looking around to see who the hell was calling me, I see someone standing next to the window. 

"I see nothing has changed, still my lazy ass little sister," she says with a giggle. 

This isn't real, I'm dreaming. I know I am. I've got to be, how can Alison be here right now?

"Al-Alison?" 

She turns to me and gives me her biggest smile, walking slowly towards me. She crouches down and puts her hand on the side of my face. I can't help but lean into her hand. This is crazy, its like she's actually here. 

"Hey sis"

How hard did I hit my head yesterday? 

"Nor, I'm so sorry" 

Why is she sorry? I should be the one apologizing. I'm the one who let her down

"This isn't your fault Nor, you never let me down. I let myself down"

I shake my head but for some reason, I can't seem to find my voice. It's like its vanished.

"I let you down and I'm so sorry. I just wasn't strong enough" dropping her head she starts to cry.

I want to say something, anything, but all I can do is bring my hands to her face and wipe her tears away.

Lifting her head back up to look at me, she gives me a small smile. 

"Nor, you are so strong, I wish I had your strength. Please never lose that strength. Don't end your story like I did."

Bringing her into a big hug, I breathe in her scent and tighten my grip. I don't want to wake up from this dream. She hugs me back and whispers in my ear. 

"Poppy said you're on the right track. I love you sis."

Jolting awake, I look around to see I'm in Kelly's room. turning my body I wince when a shooting pain shoots through my lower back. I guess that's what I get for sleeping on the bloody floor. Snapping my head towards the window half expecting to see Alison. 

"Alison?"

 Calling out her name expecting her to come running into the room, I take a deep breath and let a couple of tears slip down my face. That dream felt so real. Pushing myself up off the floor, I look around the room to see the damage I have done. Can't believe she actually left me. I'm pretty sure that's illegal considering I'm only 17. 

Heading to my bedroom, I strip my clothes off and grab my towel. I need a hot shower and a cup of tea. School can kiss my arse today. Grabbing my phone and putting it on charge. I walk into the bathroom and turn the shower on. Letting it heat up, I look at myself in the mirror. i cringe to myself, I look like a freaking zombie! The walking dead could've had me as an extra with no make-up needed. 

Jumping in the shower I let the hot water run down my body relaxing my sore muscles. I could honestly stay here forever. grabbing my shampoo and conditioner I massage my scalp. Me being the air head that I am, I totally forgot about the cut on the back of my head. Wincing I quickly wash the shampoo and conditioner out of my hair. 

"Mother-fucker!" 

Deciding I've had enough of showering. I quickly wash my body and jump out, grabbing my towel I wrap it around my body and head into my room. Checking my phone I see that i have a few messages and calls from Zack.