Simon's POV:
"So Simon, who'd you get paired/grouped with I wasn't really paying attention" JJ my best friend asked me as we walked away from Social studies and towards our next class
"Josh and then Jared and Alex"
"Thats not too bad" he says
"Maybe not for me but it is for Josh, however I can promise this now there is no way Jared and Alex are winning"
"Why is it that bad for Josh?" JJ asked
"Our debate topic is gay rights and Jared and Alex are the people who bully him most about being gay" I explain
"How do you know that?" He asks
"I just pay attention I guess" I said to avoid saying the truth which was I admired Josh for his courage in coming out and so I look out for the people who bully him and try to make conversations with them before they can make it to Josh.
I wanted to be friends with Josh and this was my perfect opportunity. If I had just randomly invited him to come eat with our table before people would have been suspicious but now I had an excuse.
He seemed really nice just really shy. I don't know whether it's cause he's bullied or not that he doesn't talk much, maybe he just wants to make himself invisible.
I understand him sometimes. People probably think that because I'm really popular that I love being the centre of attention all the time but I don't. Sometimes I wish nobody knew who I was so I could be the real me without people judging. I wish that I could be honest with people about who I truly am but I've fought so hard in the past not to because I don't want to be bullied or lose all my friends. I don't want to feel abandoned and alone again.
I haven't ever properly been abandoned but often it feels like it. My parents aren't really involved in my life they're just there. They hardly ever talk to me or even acknowledge me. If I want something I have to do it myself. If I need something I have to get it myself. It's lonely especially since no one knows. I just pretend the way I act at school is the way I act all the time but it's not.
I act like I don't have depression even though it's hard. Putting on a brave face is sometimes impossible so I ring school pretending to be my parent saying I have a migraine or something. I have to it's not like they'd care enough to do it for me. I don't want people to know about my life outside school because it's my problem not theirs and they'd think less of me than they do. I don't want that as much as I don't want the life I live sometimes.
My ideal life would be living in my own house in a place where only a few people knew me. People who I could be honest about with everything. Not a place where everyone knew me and I couldn't talk to anyone.
A/N I will really try but updates may not be every weekday for a bit sorry
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'Polar opposites' ~ Minizerk
FanfictionMinizerk highschool FF Joshua Bradley, the quiet, mysterious kid that sat on his own in every class he had. He only spoke when spoken to, never put his hand up or voluntarily worked in groups. However he wasn't rude like you would expect. Despite hi...
