I Turn To You • Calum Hood {finished}

XXI

—Mad, get out of the bathroom. I didn't mean it to be like this

—No, I don't have to obey you and please leave, I don't want to see you right now

—I won't leave until you come out, you know that

—You're not my father to boss me around, please go

—I'm not bossing you around, I'm asking you to, isn't it better to talk?

—The last person I want to talk right now it's you, could you leave? -I sigh in frustration trying to hold my tears-

—I can, but I won't leave until you come out so we talk

I doubted to go out but at the end, I knew Calum wouldn't leave and we would have to talk about it, the main reason why I didn't wanted to go out was because I hate to be seen crying, I think all of us does. I tried to compose myself before going out, I washed my face and tried to control my breathing, I took a deep breath before opening the door.

I pass through Calum ignoring his presence until I arrived to the little table, I sit on a chair and grab my phone that I had left on the table. I could feel Calum's glare at me until he got closer, he rubbed my shoulder and then put the other chair right in front of me to look directly into my eyes.

Call me ridiculous but that made me nervous and he knew it, I tried to hold a giggle

—Stop looking at me -I say trying to sound mad-

—Can we talk? -he asks again-

—We can, just not right now

—Babe, you know what happened between other girls and I was when we weren't together, I'd never have sex or kiss another girl while being with you... Never. I wouldn't damage our relationship

—I don't care about the fact that you're not a virgin anymore, the thing is that you actually lost your virginity with my fucking cousin. And it didn't happen just once but multiple times, that makes me upset because I thought I'd lose my virginity with you

—What?

—Yeah

—Well, but you're still a virgin so technically you can lose it with me -he says as he rubs my leg-

—Damn it. No, I mean that I thought we'd lose it together, like actually making love. Not just fucking for curiosity or just because you were horny -I sigh trying not to think of Calum and my cousin together-

—I didn't think we would see each other for years and that you weren't gonna wait for me

—Are you stupid? -I roll my eyes- My home's in Australia, my parents are there, not in London. I don't even have family in the UK. What would make you think that I would've stayed there?

—I didn't thought about it -he scratches his neck-

—You didn't think when you were going to fuck my cousin neither -I whisper loud enough for him to listen, causing him to sigh- and you know what? I'll never have sex with you -I cross my arms-

—What? Why? -he was kind of concerned-

—Because I say so. Let's eat -I motion him to eat but he wouldn't stop looking at me-

—No, we have to talk about it

—Calum, drop it. Whenever you feel horny just call my cousin, bet she'd be more than pleased to help you with that

—I'm not in love with your cousin, I'm in love with you

—That doesn't implies that I have to have sex with you. Can we eat now? I'm tired of this discussion -Calum sighs-

—Let's eat

Dinner was pretty awkward and quiet, none of us said anything. We were really deep into our thoughts to even care at the other one

—Madeleine -he calls my attention-

—What?

—You know that if we ever get married, we're gonna have sex, right? -he explains out of nowhere making me hold a chuckle-

—Can you drop the subject? I don't plan to have sex with you nor getting married with you -I say indifferently-

—What? Only because I had sex to with your cousin who you don't even care about, by the way, you're going to treat me this way? We used to talk about marriage before

—Used, before. You said it correctly

—Then what are we doing together? -he asks frustrated and I shrug- that's it, I'm leaving -he stands up-

—Are you aware that is 2AM and that you're in a unknown place? -I try to warn him-

—Don't care -he says while grabbing his denim jacket from the bed-