𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐄𝐍. || k.jw & k.hb [✔️]

worry. ≫ 05

≫ kim hanbin

I look at the spot where Jiwon once stood, he left. I don't know why but there's a part of me wanting him to stay here with me, but I'd be too selfish. I don't want him to fail his classes, I clutch the paper bag. I honestly don't know, I'm so confused. Oh so lost, I don't know where to start. I can't explain so.

I open the paper bag to find two cream breads and a water bottle, I smile, tears slowly pricking my eyes.

I know they're not here. But, "Thank you, Junhoe and Jiwon." I said looking at the contents of the bag as my tears slowly fall. Goddamnit, why am I so emotional when it comes to this? Can't pinpoint it anymore.

I can't leave this unanswered.. But the answers may come, I don't know exactly when.

I open the plastic packaging of the cream bread and pushed the bread up, I started eating it. Why would Jiwon be so nice to me, I don't see why he trusts me. I don't get it alright? I'm just, not used this feeling. Sure I've been trusted by my parents to be left alone in the house, trusted to take care of myself and I'm trusted by my parents to get good grades. It's normal for me.

I try to bite down on the snack in my hands, but not feeling a soft and creamy texture, I look down to see that I bit down on the packaging of the cream bread, I smile at this little mishap. I must've been eating while thinking so.

Crumpling the plastic of the cream bread that I ate, I look at the paper bag that was given to me. I reach inside the paper bag to get the water bottle.

I try to open the bottle but the cap wouldn't budge, I frowned at this. I need to drink water, I then put my right hand under my sweater and then gripped the bottle cap tightly, my left hand holding the bottom. I twist the cap and finally got it off. I drank a lot of water, hence from the events earlier...

I put the bottle back in the bag and then placed the bag beside the bed. I place my head on the soft pillows, closing my eyes and slowly drifting off to sleep.

In vast darkness, there I stood. Nothing around me, but the aura of loneliness wrung around my neck. My vision growing blurry, my hands reaching out hoping to be saved. My fingers felt the empty air, swaying around aimlessly and helplessly. Like the person who owned them, aimlessly looking.

Somebody, help me.

≫ kim jiwon

I tap my pen as I waited for the bell to ring, we finished the lesson early and our professor said that we should take a break or just simply to wait till we can go home. On the positive note, I can go home with Hanbin, The negative? Waiting till the awaited godly bell of freedom saves us all.

I stare into the distance, wondering what to do. Then I look at the seat beside me, a frown forms on my face, I want the boy who once sat there to be here with. But that's highly unlikely for what will happen for now, I can't really seem to get a grasp on this shitty reality. Why in the fuck would those girls bully him? What did he do wrong? I'm 100% sure that Hanbin has never been the type to ever so lovingly ever do something harmful to anyone at all.

What could I do? I felt like I've been with him for a long time and he was the only thing that kept me thinking; "Why haven't I met you before? You're an adorable and amazing person, who could I not notice that?" He's so... I don't know, I just met him now I'm just fucking head-over-heels over Hanbin. I sound like a cliche lovey dovey high school anime girl- I suddenly felt a pat on the shoulder.

I break my gaze from the seat beside me to see Hanbin, He's been crying again. I looked around the classroom, it's empty.

How long have I been in my thoughts?

Hanbin laughed at me and then took the seat beside me, he looked at me and brushed his bangs a bit from the side. "Jiwon, you dazed off for long ass time that the whole class already went home." He said putting on a smile that felt to be false.

He's trying not to make me worry about him, he's wrong. I'm hella worried for him.