𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐄𝐍. || k.jw & k.hb [✔️]

nightmare ≫ 16

≫ kim hanbin

I took a deep breath and stared at Jiwon, then down to my hands. I let out a shaky breath and closed my eyes to recall the memory.

"I was really young at the time when this happened... it has never left my mine and it stayed there for who knows how long I've had it." I say fear etched into my voice.

It was a silent and sunny morning, I woke up to hear muffled sounds coming from the living room, I see a man who was definitely wasn't my dad, was touching my mom in areas that made her uncomfortable, the man seemed to break the window. The man tried to threatened my mom to be with him as he held a glass shard in his hand holding it near to her neck my mom was crying out for help, she had fresh cuts on her face they seemed to be light because the man didn't want to ruin her pretty face, the man saw me standing to see the scene he threw me a glass shard that missed me, I was stuck to my feet as he started calling me a mistake to be born and I wasn't supposed to be in this world because I was a child of my dad. He was insane, he ran to me and tried to grab my neck and stab me with a glass shard that he took from the floor.
I grabbed the nearest shard and threw it at his face, I saw the red blood oozing out from the glass shard, I felt like a bad person.

I felt like I killed someone with no purpose.

I cried and felt my breaths shorten, my vision going dark and my head in a haze.

It feels so wrong. I shouldn't trust anyone besides my parents.

"A-And that's... why... I'm just.."
I felt tears sting my eyes, my heart grew heavy and I covered my face, just to remember the memory itself

I felt the cold memory creep up, the air around me making me drown in fear. My lungs were trying their best to get air yet I can't. Everything felt so suffocating, my head and my heart were pounding, it's so painful. I can't escape it. The darkness in my mind consumed me.

Two pairs of warm hands wrapped around my body, and then a flow of soft whispers, a warmth and care was in the atmosphere as darkness seemed to fade away, I look to see Jiwon-Hyung hugging me and whispering soft strings of comforting words. I melt into his comfort knowing that I have someone who I can trust besides my parents.

"Hanbin, I-I know it's something heavy in your heart." Jiwon held me tight, "If you need something out of your chest, I'll be here for you." His soft voice soothed me, his fingers that ran through my head and his warm embrace that wanted to be in forever.

I sniffled, and swallowed my fears. "Thank you Jiwon...." A small chuckle left his mouth, he pulled me away and rested a hand on my cheek.

"You're welcome Hanbin." His voice calming, and he looked at me with a tint of understanding in his eyes. He caressed my tear-streaked face, and a smile rested on his lips.

I felt like I wanted to pull myself closer to him, and to break the space between us. All I could do was to stare at his eyes and be in a trance, I felt my heart beating fast. Should I do something? Should I? Millions of voices, some ushered, some screamed, some stated that ran into my head. Jiwon seemed to inch closer and closer, who was going closer? Was it me or him? I don't even know what was happening between us.

Suddenly Jiwon turned away, his face flushed a bit red, did I do something wrong? "Yeah you did something wrong you idiot look at him! His face flushed in red!" I mentally snapped at myself,

"I-I'm s-sorry J-Jiwon.." I swallowed, tears in my eyes form again. I stood up, but Jiwon pulled me back.

"I-It's not your fault Hanbin! I just... was embarrassed at myself and s-stuff!" Jiwon he looked at me, his voice wavered.

"Anyways... lets just go back to sleep a bit." Jiwon rubbed his neck nervously, he pulled a blanket over me.

"Jiwon? What about you? Won't you be cold?" I asked, Jiwon stared at me.

"You need that blanket." Jiwon said a bit harshly, turning his back to me.

"Hyung.... please?" I begged, in a childish voice. Jiwon sighed and went in the blanket.

"Want me to hug you while you're sleeping?" I nodded, then feeling Jiwon's hands wrap around my body. I close my eyes and feel at peace.

"Goodnight Hanbinnie.." Jiwon said softly, I mumbled a goodnight to him and fell asleep in Jiwon's arms.