𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐄𝐍. || k.jw & k.hb [✔️]

it's love. ≫ 20.

≫ third person

By the time those words fell out of Jiwon's mouth, He felt the sudden pang or guilt run through his body. Hanbin was just his friend for a few days, he can't help it, it feels like they've known each other for the longest of time. Jiwon took a weary look at Hanbin, he looked a little shaken.

"But we still have school! I mean we literally have two more months w-what do you mean you're having your last day at school tomorrow?" Hanbin says as he tried to hold back his true emotions.

Jiwon didn't want to say it, yet he had to, he didn't want to leave Hanbin without a word "I'm moving to America, that's where my mom and dad will live." Hanbin then broke down, he shook his head. Started to breathe heavily, tears started to stream down his face Jiwon stared at the scenario that unfolded, the impact that broke Hanbin.

Hanbin looked down at his hands, forming it into a fist, then he looked at me with such fear and disbelief. "I-I.... why? I'm going t-to be l-lonely again. I-" Hanbin started shaking, he took shaky breaths. He shook his head.

"Hanbin..." Jiwon places a hand on one of his fists, Hanbin relaxed his clenched fists. Jiwon pulled him into a hug, and as soon as he did that Hanbin sobbed loudly.

Hanbin clutched onto him , as if he was going to disappear anytime. Hanbin has never cried about his emotions, only pain was the reason why he cried. But ever since he has met Jiwon, he knew another reason to cry about, but he felt more emotions that he did without Jiwon ever entering in his life. It felt like as if he was loosing his emotions, Hanbin then realized something. Jiwon made him feel a feeling that he's never known the name of, it was too unfamiliar, unknown, and odd. It was the warmth that he felt every time Jiwon did something that made his heart skip a beat. He kept feeling it. He was scared to not know the feeling, was scared to feel it. Now he's scared to loose it.

Jiwon wrapped an arm around Hanbin's waist, hugging him tighter. His other hand combed Hanbin's hair, in hopes that once again that his Hanbin would calm down like he did before. The latter in Jiwon's arms calmed at the warmth, he felt his elder's heart beat. Hanbin was snapped back to his question to the warm feeling that he felt, whenever he was experiencing such affection and care from the older boy.

He raised his head and looked at the older boy above him, with such fear that wrapped his tongue. Scared to say and to find out the answer that was always kept a question in his mind.

He took a deep breath and looked into Jiwon's eyes. "H-hyung?"

Jiwon looked at the latter in his arms, "What is it Hanbin?" Hanbin felt the unusual warmth grow in his chest.

"It's now or never, I must know this unusual feeling." Hanbin thought to himself, he took another breath. "What do you call this feeling that always appear whenever you're with someone, and when you think of that person it happens too.... it feels warm yet unusual. I always feel it, because of you..." Hanbin swallowed his fears, as anxiety rose to his feet.

"It feels so reassuring, like when you hug me, smile at me and especially when you saved me. This warm feeling keeps growing and growing, and right now in this moment... I feel it." Hanbin uttered softly, he fidgeted with Jiwon's shirt shyly, looking down.

Jiwon looked at Hanbin, in realization. Jiwon never thought that the latter wouldn't know the name of this feeling. "Hanbin-ah, I feel it too, whenever I'm with you. The name of that warm unusual feeling...." Hanbin looked back at the older boy in surprise, and in such wonder that it Jiwon looked away for a moment.

Silence fell between the two boys, Jiwon who was now taking deep breaths. He was surprised that he would be getting a confession, although it wasn't seemingly confession, it was more of a question. Hanbin realized how stupid of himself to ask such a thing that it made Jiwon look away, yet his hand was on Hanbin's waist. Jiwon took a glance at the latter.

"It's Love Hanbin, that means you love me... and that also means, that I love you too." Jiwon said shakily as he looked at Hanbin with a soft, reassuring smile. Hanbin's eyes grew in realization, that word was so familiar to him.

Hanbin knew the antonym of that very word. Hate. He knew it too well. "L-Love?... but h-how could you love me? Can't you hate me?" He said shakily, now crying once again.

Jiwon sighed and put his hand under Hanbin's chin, lifting it up and making Hanbin look at him with teary eyes. "I can't say that I hate you, I don't hate you at all. All I know is that I love you, but actions speak louder than words Hanbin." The latter was confused till he felt a pair of lips crashed onto his.

Hanbin's troubled mind was cleared, as unknowingly he kissed back, closing his eyes. The warmth in his chest exploded, he wanted more, but he had to breathe. Jiwon and Hanbin pulled away from each other and looked at each other. Jiwon smiled with sadness visible in his eyes, he wanted to be with Hanbin, but he had to move to
America. Hanbin noticed the sadness in Jiwon's eyes, he frowned and looked down.

As minutes passed by, it was time for Jiwon to go home and pack up. Before Jiwon headed out the door, Hanbin hugged him tightly. Jiwon hugged the latter back and had to let go, he placed a kiss on the latter's forehead and waved him goodbye.

"See you tomorrow at school hyung!" Hanbin smiled at Jiwon with the brightest smile he could muster, even if he was really scared to loose his first friend.

Jiwon smiled at him and waved him goodbye.

Hanbin was happy to know the answer the the warm feeling, but yet a lingering pain came with the answer. Hanbin shook his head and looked at the time and smiled at himself. "There's still one more day with Jiwon. I'll make it the best day for him." He said to himself.

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That day never came. Hanbin went to school, in high hopes to see his hyung. To spend their supposed last day. Hanbin held his hopes high, even if he knew that his hyung wasn't seating next to him in class anymore, even if he knew he didn't see him at lunch.

Even if he knew that he didn't come for the whole day. Hanbin felt betrayed.

Jiwon didn't come.

And Hanbin couldn't believe it.

THE END