SPN Imagines *𝗖𝗟𝗢𝗦𝗘𝗗*

With Love

Why do you make me feel like this??
What is it about you that makes me feel things I have never experienced before??
I do not understand...

How??
How did you just come into my life
and just turned it?
How is it possible that I,
could manifest such emotions?
Why do you do this to me?
Is this a good thing to feel?
Is it not?

I,
who has never had such a problem comprehending the human mind and soul, is now in a turmoil of confusion, and is unable to grasp the level of this situation I am now in.

I have no complaints
Questions??
Yes
Answers??
No
Should I allow this continue?
Should I find an end to this?
In other times
I may not had even felt a thing,
for I hadn't met such creature such as yourself.
And now....
now that you have entered my world...
It seems I am unable to walk away from it.

I have allowed myself to be consumed by your presence.
I have allowed you to take part of my my life.
I have allowed myself to feel happiness when I am around you...
Much so that I would not bare it to see any sadness in your eyes
Pain in your heart
Darkness in your soul
And death, in your life.

But
I stop and wonder...
Can we be happy together??
Would we be able to have
what others have?
Can we aim towards that life,
we both wish to live?
Would it be ok,
for me to give up what I am
to be with you??
Would it be the right thing to do?
For you are human, and I am not...

Would I be seen as a traitor??
Will I be accepted in your world?
Would I be expelled from my own?

Would it be a selfish act on our part, if we stop to think about us?
Even if it's just for a brief moment...
If we,
allow ourselves to think what could be and what consequence may bring and yet not have a care in the world for that one brief moment...

Could I then say,
I love you
Would you reciprocate, and say
I love you too??

Can I truly live
A life that is not mine?
One that perhaps was not
assigned to me?

Or has it been??
Was it a gift just for me?
Is this why I feel such things for you?
Is this why in times I should express happiness...
I too,
express a heaviness
where my heart should lay?
A pain that at times
has no explanation,
no rhythm
or reason?

If so....
Then, may I have it?
May I,
have your full heart?
May I,
not only become your protector,
But also your friend,
and your lover?
May we have a life together?
And not be selfish to not even allow ourselves to have
what other won't?

For every story is different
Every ending is different,
But every new beginning,
Starts out just the same...

With love...