I'll Be Here for Forever || z.m.

Chapter Fifteen

The audience 'awww'd as he said this. God, I loved him.

He kissed my hands and they responded in the same way they had before.

Ellen joined in, 'awww'ing along. "We're going to give these two love birds some privacy and we'll be right back after the break!" She announced to the audience.

"And we're clear!" Someone shouted from backstage.

"You guys are too cute," Ellen said. "And I like your hat Kendall!" She gestured to my beanie.

"Thanks," I laughed. "It's his actually." I nodded to Zayn.

"It's yours now," He smiled at me. Even though I was already weak in the knees, that smile didn't help.

"Wasn't it Harry's at some point?"

"Probably," Zayn shrugged.

We finished the show shortly after we returned from the break.

Him and I headed back to the hotel and up to my room, planning on taking a nap before dinner. I was exausted.

We layed down on the king sized bed, which was oh so comfortable.

I kissed him softly. "I love you," I whispered against his lips.

"I love you, too," He replied.

We continued to kiss. He had his hand on my hip, mine on his neck. His toungue begged for entry into my mouth. I let him. He pulled me into his lap without breaking our kiss. Wow, he was a good kisser. He ran his hands through my hair, and I began to unbutton my shirt.

"Kendall," He pulled away.

"What?" I was confused.

"I don't think we should do this." He stated looking away.

"Why not?" This time, about two months ago, the roles were switched. What?

"Because... you're fragile, and don't get me wrong, love, you're as beautiful as ever, but I don't know th-the rules when you're hurt," He turned beat red.

My mind went back to when I was reading the Twilight books. This was the classic Edward-Bella situation. Edward only wanted what was best for Bella, but Bella wanted more. "Fine."

"I want to, I do, but I just don't think it's a good idea," Zayn sat up from his once horizantle position.

"I get it, okay? Can you just leave me alone? I want to get some sleep before dinner." I said coldly.

"Okay, love you," Zayn was about to kiss me on the lips but I turned my head to the side and he got my cheek. He sighed and went out the door to his own room.

*Zayn's P.O.V.*

"Okay, love you," I went in for one last kiss but she dove under the covers, turned her head and dodged me.

I felt bad about rejecting her. I had close to zero self control, and I'd surprised myself when I pulled away when she tried to undress herself.

I was angry at myself for not trying to comfort her more, and a bit annoyed at her for taking it how she did. I mean, I was only trying to do what was in her best interest, right? Right.

I went over to my room and found Niall searching through my fridge.

"You aren't going to find anything, lad," I told him as I walked past where he was standing.

Niall stood up and looked at me, blushing. "S-sorry, I was just hungry and we didn't have anything good and, hey, where's Kendall?"

"She wanted to get some sleep before dinner." I said bitterly.