My Mechanical Heart (girlxgirl)

28 - Will You Go Out On A Date With Me?

Nikki's P.o.V

It's been what? A week? Since I last saw Ella at the mall?

I know I pushed her away at our last conversation and I think I regret it big time because I'm missing her so much.

I wanted us to be okay but my ego won't let me. For fck's sake she hurt me.

But it practically killed me when I saw how shocked and hurt Ella was when I pushed her away. I was being a cold hearted bitch towards her which I'm not. Ugh.

I wanted to hug her right there and then but I couldn't. I was too caught up with my emotions.

After that incident. I didn't go to school for my finals. And as a result. I failed all my classes. I don't care actually. I was too tired to study. I was too tired to actually do things.

"Babe. This isn't healthy anymore." Victoria said after sitting down beside me on my bed.

"I'm fine Tori. Just let me be." I said tiredly. I pulled my blanket up to my face then closed my eyes again.

I heard Tori sighed beside me. I know she's so worried about me.

She didn't say a word after the incident with Ella. She just stayed with me. She looked after me. Sometimes I even feel that Tori loves me but I brushed it off thinking she's just that concerned because I'm her friend.

I suddenly felt her arms around my waist and her warm body embraces me from behind. I can feel her warm breath on my nape and for some reason I started to cry.

I know she heard me because then I felt her hug tightened. I felt so loved. I felt her care for me. I wanted this feeling to last. I wished Tori loves me like I love Ella. I wished I'm inlove with Tori instead. I then fell asleep without my knowing.

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I'm currently drinking my coffee outside this Starbucks somewhere here in Manila. I just want some fresh air to clear my mind. Fresh air huh but all I can inhale is smoke from cigarettes. Damn.

"Is this seat taken?" I heard a familiar voice ask behind me.

I looked up to see Ar Kin staring at me sadly. Right. I haven't spoken to him since he left me alone in that stupid party.

I nodded at him then motioned for him to sit at the said chair.

Silence engulfed us for a few minutes. I don't know how to talk to him. I don't blame him completely about what happened to me. But a part of me hates him for leaving me alone.

"Whore..." He said softly. I lifted my head to glance at him. His face is so sad that I understand immediately that he is sorry for leaving me that night.

"What?" I said coldly.

"I...I'm really sorry I left you. It wasn't intentional. I was pulled away by a couple of dudes. I don't know who they are but they shoved me inside a closet for no reason. I was practically banging the door to get out but it won't budge. I think they're outside guarding me. I don't know why. I didn't have my phone with me so I have no other means of getting out. But after a few hours, the door was opened by a maid. It's just then that I managed to dash out from that closet and it was already morning. I swear I looked everywhere for you. But I didn't find you. I was so worried Nikki. I tried calling and texting you but you're not answering. I even went to your dorm but I found out that you're not staying there anymore. I'm really sorry Nikki." He said continuously but I know it's sincere. I sighed loudly.

"Ar Kin...That night...I was...I...was...raped..." I said as my tears started welling up.

"W-what?!" Shock is evident in his face and voice.