And this, is that story

Part 5

CHERYL'S POV

Toni. Toni was all i could think about for the past couple of days. The pink haired girl had completely invaded my thoughts since the hospital incident. I could still feel Toni whispering in my ear, her warm breath touching my skin, running shivers throughout my whole body. Her presence had made me feel better and falling asleep on her arm gave me a feeling of safeness. This was all until the nurse decided to barge in of course. Boy did i hate that nurse. It was really weird. I had never felt this way about anyone ever before. People used to be useless pieces in the cruel game of life. Until Toni came around. I mean, if i could describe Toni, i would say she was the most wonderful and caring person i had ever met. I mean obviously she was beautiful, but there was so much more to her than that. She was tough and soft at the same time. People were scared around her but none the less still reassured that she was there. She was really good at making people laugh and overall a really positive and outgoing human being. Well i would never actually say that, i would probably just let out a "oh yeah she seams nice".

I couldn't wait to see her. I was finally going back to school after having missed a week. I had heard that Sweet Pea, Fangs, Wolf and Sunny had been suspended and had to do community service. I was pretty satisfied with that. One whole week since i'd seen Toni, or even heard from her. Mother had already left on, yet another, business trip with daddy, which left me all alone in my enormous house. Not gonna lie, it was pretty lonely. But hey, nothing i'm not used to right?

I was currently speeding down the stairs to head out the front door,eager to get to my newly repaired car. My right arm would still ache from the recently taken out stitches every so often, but nothing i couldn't stand. I hopped into my car and turned on the engine. That's when it happened. I got a flashback. I could visualize the brick bursting through the windshield and the strong and stinging pain i could feel throughout my whole arm. I then remembered Toni getting glass pieces all over her and taking off her shirt. That was hot though. I could be close to death and still think about how pretty she was.

I looked at the time and fifteen minutes had passed. Shit. I was still in my driveway and school was starting in 5 minutes. I quickly pressed down on the engine pedal and sped to Riverdale High. The image of Toni smiling and laughing is probably what blocked out the fear of getting a speeding ticket honestly but oh well.

I had finally arrived after what felt like an eternity of driving. I could hear the school bell ring which designated the start of classes. I screeched my tires as i came to a sudden stop, i grabbed my bag and quickly walked to the entrance of the school. Cheryl Blossom does not run, let that be known.

I had arrived in my Liberals class about fifteen minutes late, thankfully pulling the hospital card works about a trillion times so that was fine. I still hadn't seen Toni yet , seeing as she started with History. That was okay though because i knew i was going to be able to see her at lunch time. I couldn't play off as too needy though , just the right amount of empowerment and teasing would do the trick. The rest of my classes flew by as fast as i could say Toni , thank god for that. Before i knew it, it was time to eat and i couldn't wait to see the South Side serpent.

The whole room was packed. Every single table was taken and the pink haired girl was nowhere to be found. I had spotted Veronica and Betty a couple tables away so i quickly snatched an apple from someones tray and head over to my friends.

<< Oh my god, Cheryl, you're back!>> Veronica was clearly very enthusiastic to have me back , wish i could say the same about myself. I could hear Veronica talking to me but my mind was set on another table. From far away, at the very last table, i could see her. Toni. Her soft pink hair was visible from behind Jughead's shoulder, i could see her laughing. Boy could her smile light up the room.

<<Um Cheryl? listen i know you just got back and all but that doesn't make up for the fact that- I cut her off as soon as possible

<<Yeah, yeah sure Veronica, listen we can catch up later okay? love you always.>> I sped off away from the clingy table and toward the table that i had been thinking about since the beginning of the day. Toni's. I could feel my heart's pulsations speed up. I could hear my heartbeat boom in my head. I was now only a couple steps away from what i had been waiting for. Then, i was there, right behind her.

<<Hey guys!>> i said nervously, i could almost feel my hand shaking from the adrenaline.

<<Hey Cheryl! You're back! What a nice surprise! we weren't expecting you for another week!>> Moose beamed with the biggest grin on his face. I smiled back, trying to seem as calm and collected as possible.

<<Oh well the doctor left me out early and...>> My voice had trailed off when i glanced down and saw Toni's hand in Jughead's. They were both glued to each-other. Then it clicked. They were together.

I felt sick to my stomach and ran off without finishing my sentence nor saying goodbye. I needed to get out of here. I could here Toni running after me and asking to wait up on her but i couldn't. I couldn't bear to look at her. I knew we weren't a thing but there was clearle some sort of thing going on between the two of us.

<< Cheryl! CHERYL! CHERYL WAIT UP, PLEASE. SLOW DOWN>>

The problem was, i coudn't. I couldn't slow down because i felt like a worthless nobody and i was ashamed. How could i ever think that there was ever anything going on between the two of us, i mean, we're both so different. My mother was right. She was right all along. I was a nobody and i had never felt love. I was probably never going to feel love. How could i have been so foolish, i was so caught up in the idea of her that i was blinded by the fact that she didn't love me. She left me , and for who? JUGHEAD. SHE LEFT ME FOR JUGHEAD JONES BECAUSE I AM NOT WORTH IT AND I WILL NEVER BE WORTH IT. I WILL NEVER BE ENOUGH AND I KNOW THAT, SHE KNOWS THAT, EVERYONE FUCKING KNOWS IT.

I WILL NEVER BE LOVED.