Twisted Perfection (Jason McCann)

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Brynn

"Are you okay?" Mia asks me while I walk towards my locker. I just nodded. I haven't seen them since what happened. I asked them to leave me alone. I haven't left my room.
I was scared to sleep, I would have nightmares and re-live everything.
It has been a week now. And today was the first day back at school.

How can I act normal?

How do you kill someone and act normal? He had a family, his brother.
I am not used to these things and I regret it. If I had the other option I would've taken it. But, it was self-defense.
In the end, I killed a man. He wasn't innocent, but I killed him. How do I get over that?

"We know you're not," Kyle stated. For once he wasn't hyperactive. He was calm. I know what happened affected them too.
"I don't want to talk about it," I told them.
"We understand. But if you do. We are here for you." Naomi said and they walked away leaving me alone.

How I go to class and pretend nothing happened?

After arguing with myself I decided to go to Monroe's. I was on my way to the parking lot when I saw the boys arrive. I wanted to avoid them. They are a constant reminder of what happened.
"Where are you going?" Khalil asked me. I shrugged trying to hold back my tears.
"Please, go. I'll be fine." I said trying for them to leave me alone.
"Brynn. We know what happened is a shock to you. But you know we are here for you right?" Za asked while the others even Jason nodded. I smiled.

"Thanks."

With that, the boys walked away. Except for Jason.
"Come." He said. I look at him confused. He opened his car door. "What?" I asked. I was confused. Did he want me to get in or what?
"Get in." He said and this time he didn't speak to me with his harsh tone like he always doe but he had a genuinely soft tone to his words. Hesitant I got into his car and he sped off.

We arrived at Monroe's? How did he know I was about to come here?
"How did you know?" I ask but he didn't answer and got out of the car.
I followed inside behind him and we took a seat.

"You look unhappy," Tony stated while handing me a muffin. "Well, this sure makes me happy." I took the muffin and smiled at him.
Tony looked at Jason but he had a hard stare on me.
Tony smiled one last time and walked away.

"I just wanted to make sure you keep your mouth shut about what happened." He said. Is he serious?
"Jason, if I talk about it I will go down too. I m-under the guy." I whispered half having a day nightmare thinking about it. A tear left my eye. It felt like something broke inside of me.

"You could've just not gone after us and leave me and my friends that way you wouldn't even be involved and you could blame it all on me. Bet you would've loved that." I spat not knowing what came over me.
"Watch your tone." He said trying to hold his anger back.
"I'm sorry." I sobbed.
I saw his eyes soften a bit.

We just sat there for hours not saying anything. Nothing had to be said. It was a peaceful silence. The only thing to be heart were the people around us.
It was now getting pretty dark outside which meant we've been here the whole day. It was dark early since it is still January.

"I want to show you something," Jason said. Standing up. I followed his lead and we walked outside.
I was even surprised that he took me here. Just do not talk to me?
I got into his car and we drove away.

I closed my eyes for a second but I felt the car stop and Jason was already out. I look up to see him holding the door open for me. I got out and saw that we were on a hill. We had a view of the whole city. All the lights shine like the sun.
"So bright yet so dark," I mutter.
"You can see it clearly yet so many secrets." Jason now said.

I look up at him to see him staring at the city. Gotta admit he looks damn hot right now.

We both sat down and talked a little. He was actually nice to me.
After a while, I closed my eyes and fell asleep.