winter

denial

I look but I dare not to believe
I feel but I dare not to touch

I lost you and maybe I don't want to believe so
Tears are drowning me
They were seas
but now
They're oceans
I'm living in denial
Denial of your leaving

Everytime you're mentioned I freeze​
You made me yours
In thoughts
In mind
In heart
In beats
In breathe
I admire living in denial
If it's a denial of your leaving
I keep hearing your voice saying it's okay I'll survive 
I saw you crying begging God for a chance
and everytime you see me you dry my tears away
You tell me life gives us sower and gives us sweet, be alive and love wildly before you lose your chance like I lost mine
I cry more but you hold me tighter
When you left this world my soul left with you
even though I tried many times to love I couldn't
I tried to keep my promise but I was already broken and my edges hurt I was scared I would hurt.