Gotta Find My Way Back

Chapter 5: I Needed To Ease The Pain

Now it's been almost a year my little one past away at birth. I carry that heartbreak in my heart everyday. It was a girl my princess left earth to soon. I was there for Amber through it all but I kept my promise to Regina never crossing the lines of disrespect with any female ever again. I made sure I showed her she was my everything. Dealing with the death of my little one took over me not to mention my mother being diagnosed with breast cancer. I couldn't find a release and even though Regina tried to help nothing she said nor did matter. So I started smoking marijuana and drinking heavy all day everyday to numb the pain. I was shit wasted 24/7 lost my job because of it but I didn't care. I just wanted my daughter back and my mother okay. I was laying in the bed drunk as fuck I felt good to. Regina came in trying to lecture me I ain't want to hear that shit. I was trying to get her to leave the room or I was trying to leave the house but she kept blocking. All I remember was she pushed me and I started beating her ass. It felt good to knock somebody out. She called the police on me I was arrested. My homeboy johnny bailed me out. She just didn't know she was in for a rough ride. I was ordered to stay away from her. I had to much going on and after that performance I needed to be away from everybody, but Regina was my woman and I wanted to be near her I had to be. I started stalking her every move. We had court I was sentence to 30 days in jail for assault. Ordered to take anger management and 72 hours of community service. After I was released I started back stalking her. Found out she had a new nigha. That shit tore me down who the fuck did he think he was caressing and kissing my woman in front of me. The anger in me only got worse. I hacked her phone was listening to all her calls. She was telling her friends how he made love to her and everything. What killed me the most was when she said her daughter adored him and wanted them to get married. Hell nal I couldn't sit around no longer. I had to take action so I did.