Gotta Find My Way Back

Chapter 18: Just When I Moved On

We both stood there waiting for Regina to come back and make her decision. I knew what my gut feeling was saying. I actually feel bad that I put her in this position as to where she's forced to choose in front of all these people like this, but I couldnt help myself she's my queen . Always have been always will be together forever and always. They told everyone to stand up and the doors opened. My sister on her right and his girl cousin on her left. They walked her down the aisle now to Jesse Powell you. She was so beautiful. Once she reached us both the pastor asked " have you made your decision?" All three of them nodded yes. She broke away from them and she walked over to Justin. I felt nauseous immediately. My heart crumbled. I had lost my world. I begin to cry and hard like I was at somebody's funeral. I begin to walk from the alter only to be stopped by the pastor saying Greg my son I know they said don't say anything, but your heart seems heavy is there anything you would like to say. I turned around I looked Regina in her eyes then I glanced at Justin. He won, and I had to face reality. A smirk on his face. I said "congratulations to you both, thank you for being an amazing man to/for my son Justin. Everyone glanced at Darius he was crying and I didn't even notice. I said Regina babygirl you deserve all the happiness in the world and you have became an amazing woman. I dropped my head as the tears fell more on my suit. I push through putting a smile on my face. I looked back up at her to see she was crying. I said Always and then she said Forever" with that I turned around and walked out of the building. I didn't get in my car I just walked down the street. My world was gone and it became another man treasure. Every incident on how I broke her down constantly just came running back to my head. My phone was ringing, but I didn't even bother grabbing it out my pocket. It finally stopped. I walked so far I didn't even realize I was almost to my house. I went on home by now my phone had rung a total of seven times. I still didn't look at it. My world was in the hands of another man. I walked through the door. I'm not worried about my car my sister has a key to it. She will bring it to me. I locked the door and grabbed my henny poured me a shot saying what a day. I walked in my room and remembered our encounter lastnight. I dropped on the bed and finally grabbed my phone. Two missed calls from an unknown number one from Darius and four from my sister. I decided to call my sister back. What's up sis, she stated into the phone where are you I said home. She said how did you get there I said I walked sis. I had so much on my mind I began to walk and ended up home. She said well I was calling you because Regina wants you to come to the reception area at one. I said why I have nothing left there with her. I have to bury my feelings for her sis I won't be there. She said look just be there please. I said no I'm good y'all enjoy y'all selves and let me call my little man back. She said okay and I could hear her disappointment, but I had to do this for me. It was for the best! I called Darius back and he said daddy you okay? I said yes son I'm good I'm home about to lay down. He said oh okay daddy see you later. I said sure Little man he said am I still going to be with you while mommy's on her honeymoon? I said no doubt son let me know where your on the way he got excited saying yes. Daddy may I tell you a secret I said anytime son, he said mommy wants you at the reception because she said she can't let you go fully. I said son I won't make it, because mommy is now a wife and I can't disrespect her nor her marriage any longer. He said I understand daddy oh shoot here comes mommy bye. I laughed at him because my son is crazy but very loyal to be his age. I glanced at the clock it was 8:53 am. What a long day already. I drifted off to sleep. The dream I was having before about the wedding picked up where it left off at before my sister bust in my room that day and woke me up out of it. Sure enough it finished off with her choosing him just like in reality. I was awaking by a soft touch and a sweet voice. I thought I was dreaming, but there she was in my room again in the flesh just as I opened my eyes. I looked around pinched myself and said her name. Regina what are you doing here. She said listen your sister told me you wasn't coming to the reception. I said because it's best. She was so fucking gorgeous as the curls flowed down her back and in her face. She said Always and Forever right. I said not on that level babe. She smirked and said I got somebody who wants to see you. I said who she said she's been away for sometime now, but she's back. In walked Ginas daughter. You know the one I told you she conceived by being raped. I grabbed her and hugged her close. She said I just wanted to tell you I love you and thank you for saving mommy and I. I kissed her forehead and said always and forever because she has always been my daughter Take my number and call me anytime okay babygirl. She still looked just like her mother. I was glad to have both of my children in my life. We talked and got caught up it was now 12:17 and they left to go change for the reception. I still wasn't going I mean what purpose did I have for going honestly. So I stayed home. My sister came home about five with a sleeping Darius. I put him in the guest bed. I asked my sister did she have fun she states she did. She also let me know she reconnected with her ex Rico and they was going out again and spending time later at his house. I said that's what's up because I actually like Rico. They only broke up because of his job offer in California. He was perfect for my sister so I was happy for her. I begin to walk out the living room and all I heard was I'm sorry brother. I looked at her and jogged to her. Sis it's not your fault you did all you could and trust me you helped me feel her again. Thank you for having my back I said as I kissed her forehead. She said your welcome anything for you. I went to my room and chilled until Darius got up. We spent time together and it was a blissful moment. I seen my son every day. It has now been about ten weeks since the wedding and slowly my feelings for Regina we're leaving. I met a woman name Angela and I must say she was amazing company. We was chilling on the sofa almost sleep when my phone rung. I seen it was my sister so I answered "what's up sis?" She breathed deeply and said you need to come to the hospital NOW she yelled. I said what's wrong she said nothing that I can say over the phone just come okay. I jumped up scaring Angela saying I'm on the way. She said what's wrong I said my sister said I needed to come to the hospital. I prayed my son and daughter as well as my sister was alright. Do you want me to come. I told her no it was fine she could head home if she want and I would call her. She did just that giving me a kiss while saying I'm here for you baby. I smacked her ass hugged her tight and said I know as I hopped in my car and raced to the hospital. I ran in calling my sister. She said 5th floor room 507. I was confused. Once I got there I seen Justin my son daughter sister and some family members I was familiar with. Motherfucker I heard Justin yell as he hit me dead In my shit. I was caught off guard, but soon as I came to the acknowledgement of what took place I started beating that nigha ass. The family members broke us up. My sister and kids was crying. I said what the fuck going on, because I seen everybody except Gina. Just go in the room my sister said. I did nobody followed me. I opened the door and there she was in the hospital bed. I grabbed her hand crying and I said Regina what's wrong. Why are you in here. She said Greg I'm.........