Gotta Find My Way Back

Chapter 15: My Rightful Place Is Home With Her

I rode in silence my mind racing with how I'm going to win the love of my life back. I got to the house and I took a shower and just thought about how she looked how she smelled. I thought about the way her curves grew in making her look even more flawless than she already was. Slow dancing with her and kissing her every night for the rest of my life was my goal at hand. Darius was right he will always be my son,but she will no longer be my battle to win. I got out the shower towel wrapped around my waist. My body was still slightly wet from the shower. I sat on the bed and grabbed my phone. Darius said send her sweet messages. Hi! Regina I'm just messaging because I can't get that gorgeous face and those soft lips out my head. I know I fucked us up and I was far from a man. Gina I've grown up and I missed you like hell. I know this isn't my place, but why are you still playing house with him when you know your heart is with me. I love you and I'm in love with you girl. They only way I'll stop coming for what's mine is if you say I do to him. Until then I'm fighting for my rightful place in life and babygirl that's beside you as your husband and our children being the father figure I need to be. All the while putting another baby in you. Y'all are my life and you are my wife. I'm coming home! I sent it through facebook messenger and her reading my message was killing me. I was wondering how would she respond? Did she feel the same way? Will I get her back? So much clouding my mind about this one woman. She was my existence though. My rib, the Eve to my Adam, the butter to my toast; she has always been my soulmate. My heart wouldn't be able to handle her saying I do to another man. I gotta find my way back to her to us to love. After 4 hours past I noticed she still haven't read my message. I was getting very doubtful. I couldn't stop thinking about her. She still didn't respond after like 2 more hours so i said fuck it. Now here we are at their wedding. I got the colors of the wedding from my sister and I put on a tux that I knew flowed perfectly with her dress. I knew she was going to be a beautiful bride. I was going to make my grand entrance. He was standing at the altar waiting for her. Mul-TY LOOKING FOR LOVE begin to play through the speakers. The view was breathtaking. She had on a silver dress that was fit only for a Goddess. It flowed down and over her curves perfectly. Around her breast area and the base of the dress was touches of purple and black with diamonds. Her makeup was the definition of perfection. If the walls could talk they would tell you she was Gods personal master piece. She was walking down the aisle to the beat. I had a microphone in my hand. She made it to the altar. They exchanged vows along with their rings. All of their family and friends was there. If their is anyone who has any reason why this couple shouldn't be joined together in holy matrimony speak now or forever hold your peace.  I screamed through the Mic I OBJECT. Everybody turned around to see who screamed that. Regina hollered Greg what the fuck dude. I said baby I miss you and I need you marry me. You know it has always been us. Greg I heard my sister calling my name. Regina looked at me as if she wanted me more than I wanted her. GREG. tell me what's in your heart Regina! GREG my sister still screaming my name but I'm ignoring her. She looked at both Justin and I and said I choose then I felt water on me and jumped up. What in the Hell Shonda. What you do that for. She said boy I called your name like three times before I through that water on you. It was all a dream fuck I mumbled to myself. You was in a deep as sleep. He said I WAS dreaming about Regina sis. We was at the wedding and she was about to make her decision until yo bald headed ass interrupted my dream. She said motherfucker I'm bald headed by choice don't you EVER forget that. We bust out laughing I snatched my sheets off the bed and tossed them in the washer. My sister glared at me while I fixed some cereal. She said you miss her that much I was like hell yea I need her man. I need my family. She said well time is closing in because the wedding has been pushed up to next week. I stood up and asked why. She said he said he didn't want to waste anymore time on her becoming his wife. The only reason it's a week out is to give both of their families time to make it in town. Then it's going down. So whatever your going to do now is the time to make your move. I scratched my head. In a voice just above a whisper I said I know and walked off. I was more nervous. Time wasn't my bestie at the moment. How can I make her change her mind in a week. It was Impossible. I grabbed my phone and checked it and it was a message from her. How the fuck did I forget I messaged her last night damn. I opened it and it said. Greg you know I'm getting married and that timeframe has turned into next week. I can see that you have grown up and became a man. The person you became a man for though wasn't me. It was for our son. Thank you for the compliments, but it's best if we reframe from messaging eachother. I'm not playing house with him I love him. I have to be honest though a piece of my heart does lie with you because of how you saved me on our younger days. I'm not that little girl anymore though. I'm a full grown woman who has a man that didn't put me through hell and back. I owe it to him to be his wife Greg. I hope you understand and trust me nothing will change with you seeing your son. My heart dropped, but I'm holding on to hope because she said a piece of her heart lies with me. I coming home to my rightful place.