I Hate You, I Love You

Hornballs

Ashley POV

Chris and Alex just finished cleaning up the mess in the bathroom.

"Ma you still not gon make nun it's Christmas?"

"Nope not this year baby. I'll make something for New Years though."

"Okay."

"Maybe we should go out to eat." Rocky's mom suggested as she exhaled smoke from the cigarette she was smoking. How can people put those in their mouth? I only like weed because I like the feeling of being high.

"Yeah we should right now." Lisa said

"Okay everyone get your coats and stuff on. Lets go to Golden Corrall." Chuck said

"Oh yeah I haven't been there in a minute." Nas licked his lips.

Thirty minutes later:

We were currently at Golden Corall and Alex looked so good right now. I just wanted to take her in the bathroom and fuck her right now. But its a public bathroom and I have more class than that. Also I'm still a virgin, and although I've been having thoughts lately I'm still undecided. For the most part I know I want to give it up to Alex. She's someone I truly love and I know she loves me back. I just always want to be like 'fuck me now daddy' but can never bring myself to do it. What should I do? I don't want to keep her waiting, but it's like I chicken out because I'm scared of heartbreak. But life is about taking risk isn't it?

"Ashley! Ashley!" Alex says snapping her hands in my face

"Huh?"

"The waiter is waiting for you so he can take your order."

"Oh sorry about that. I'll just have the number 3 special."

"Okay and to drink?"

"Sprite."

"Okay I'll be back shortly with you guys drinks."

"Babe you good you were quite deep in thought there."

"I know it's nothing. I was just staring into space for some reason." I hope I played that off as well as I could.

Two hours later:

We decided to go to Alex house after dinner with the family. Her place was a shorter distance than from mine. Getting comfortable in our pajamas, which for me was a tank top and boy shorts and for her boxers and a tank top.

"Damn girl whatchu doing with all that ass out?" She jokes smacking my ass.

"Just trying to give you a better view." I wasn't kidding. Those two hours at Golden Corall had me thinking, and now I've made my decision.

"You should take em off and then I'll have a perfect view."

"You can." I say with a straight face. I watch as she laughs her ass off but then it quickly fades once she see my face.

"You deadass?"

"Yeah."

"Oh shit."

Alex POV

I was dumbfounded. Was she really going to let me smash? Well not smash but make love to her. I looked into her face and still tried to find any ounce of a joke, but there was none. I don't know why I'm stuck I've had sex with multiple women. I guess she just caught me off guard. I had to say something.

"Well lets go into the bedroom."

"Okay." My mind was fucking racing. I never done anything with Ashley. We made it into the bedroom and she just looked at me