𝐁𝐢𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐧||✔️

Chapter 19

I need him.

I need them.

I need her.

I need them back.

My head and heart hurt as hell. I want them. I need them. I feel like I'm gonna die soon. I feel like shit.

Tears ran down my face as my parents's face apeared in my head making me feel guilty for being a horrible sister to Stella and Tom. I'm the worst sister ever. I always take away the things they love most from them.

I looked at Daniel who was in my arms since he was the only one awake until now. He whailed for his father. He wanted him and I'm a horrible mother for being selfish and not being brave enough to call Kai and tell him to come and see them. I'm scared of facing him and bursting into tears, to show him my weakness.

I sighed knowing that I had to do it now or later. The kids can't live without their father and neither can he live without them. I placed Daniel down in his rocking chair and walked over to the coffeé table where my phone sat glaring up at me.

I wiped my tears away and took in a deep breath before picking up the phone and turned it on to see over 200 hundred massages from the Kims, the whole lot.

A week a ago I took the triplets, Stella and Tom and left Korea feeling to overwelmed by emotion and feeling pain everytime I looked at something that reminded me of Kai.

It's been three months since Kai cheated and till this day he still haven't forced me to show him the kids or talk to me giving me the space I need which I'm grateful for. He understood that I needed time to heal.

There was about 80 massages from only Jooheon causing me to feel a little better that he actually cared. I opened Kai contact to see that he didn't call or even massage me once causing me to frown.

My fingure lingered for a second over the call botton before pressing it and placed my phone shakly to my ear and waited for him to answer.

He answered after the second ring causing more tears to feel my eyes at only hearing the voice that I hated the most and the voice that I missed so much.

"Lily?" His voice echoed in my head for a second.

"We're in China if you wanted to visit the kids. You should be able to trach us by my scent cause I covered the triplets's scents with mine" I said and hang up not being able to hold it in even more but I was able to control it and instead of having a melt down I only let a few tears to fall down but wiped them quikly knowing that Kai will be here in about an hour.

I walked over to the crib that held Destiney and David in it and watched them as they slept for like 10 minutes and felt myself relax as Daniel stop crying as he was rocked back to sleep in the chair.

- 1 hour later-

I felt fear build up inside of me as the clock ticked feeling like each passing second is a whole hour itself.

My head wiped towards the door when the there was a knock on the door. I slowly got up and walked over to it and held the handle but couldn't bring myself to open it.

"Lily" His voice sounded anxious as he said my name.

"Please open the door" He pleaded and I heard his heart pick up the spead.

I took in a huge breath before opening it slowly bracing myself for this. I saw him standing there looking handsome as ever but the only diffrence was his eyes sparkeling with tears.

"Come in" I said feeling proud with myself for not breaking down when I met his eyes. He walked in and closed the door behind him and his eyes never left mine for a second.