for the boy i had to let go

one

there is something to be said about why i can't stop writing about you. why the words are pouring out of me lately and i can't make them stop, no matter how hard i try.

i can try drowning the feelings in funny videos. interviews with my favorite actors and idols turned into interviews with people i've had no prior knowledge of, but they distract me, so i continue.

i can try to drown it out in mindlessly scrolling through social media. the apps i once told myself i was so separated from have now turned back into where i go when i am bored, when i can feel the thoughts of you trying to creep back in.

there is something to be said about all of this.

so rather than let it go unsaid, i am going to let it all out.

this is for you.

the boy i had to let go.

from me.

the girl who desperately wishes she could forget you.