Forbidden Affair (Completed) [R-18]

19 : Obnoxious

Obnoxious - unpleasant in a way that makes people feel offended, annoyed, or disgusted.

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Gigs

Looking at my friend now seems to be a hallucination to me. The way he shouts. The way he throws everything he sees. Lahat ng gamit sa condo niya basag dahil sa kagagawan niya. He looks angry beyond angry. Tangina hindi ko maipaliwanag ang itsura niya ngayon. A stranger would fear him. Fucking shit! He is hell himself.

Hinintay kong kumalma si captain. It took him half an hour until his anger subsided.

" Fucking calm the shit down, Zarate!" Dumugo ang kamay niya dahil sa hawak na basag na bagay. Ni hindi ko alam kung ano yun. Sa kinadami rami ba naman ng binasag niya.

Isang babae lang naman ang alam kong dahilan ng lahat ng ito. Tangina kase, kung sino pa yung kailangan siya pa yung nagparaya. Kung sino pa yung mahal ng gagong 'to, siya pa yung aalis.

Captain literally owns the school that's why everything that concerns Sabina is being directly reported to him. And guess fucking what he just knew, few minutes ago.

Pagdating kay Sabina, walang sinasanto 'tong Zarate na 'to.

I didn't even think that Sabina will be leaving the country in two weeks time. With everything that's happening, I can't really tell what's with Captain's thoughts. Nakakakilabot kase mag-isip ni Captain. Panghorror movie.

" Get out!" He shouted at me. Tangina ako na nga 'tong nagmamalasakit, ako pa 'tong ginagago niya.

" Putangina Zarate! Sa tingin mo ba mababago nito ang desisyon ni Kapitana. Nasaan ba siya ngayon ha, Sabina is currently sleeping on her own bed thinking about how she would live her life without you! And you are here destroying everything just to pull out that goddamn superego of yours! Tangina Zarate kung hindi mo magawang bigyang importansya ang pagmamalasakit ko sa 'yo, sabihin mo ng hindi pasigaw!" Sumigaw din ako. Siya lang ba may karapatang sumigaw.

Hindi siya nagsalita at biglaan nalang nagwalk out. Umalis siya.

Damn it! Sabina needs to know about it.

I know where he's going. I let him. Because they need to fix whatever is going on between them.

Sabina

That night, Liana came hugging me while crying. Hindi ko alam ang totoong nangyari sa kanya nang hinayaan ko siyang pumunta sa condo ni Miguel but she texted me just thirty minutes after, crying.

Tuluyan akong napapikit ng maalala ko ang gabing nalasing si Miguel. I received a phone call that night. It was a late one but still I was able to answer it.

Hanggang ngayon bumabagabag parin sa isipan ko ang mga katagang sinabi niya.

" You love me but you can't even choose me" It was blurted out using his bed room voice under the influence of alcohol but it gives me this kind of different feeling everytime I think of it.

It was never a one sided love because I am inlove with him.

The only thing I have in mind to mame this all stop is to give way. Leaving has never been an escape to reality but in my case, leaving is my only escape.

I am selfish. I cannot give him the love he deserves. I am selfish. I don't see his cares and wounds because of loving me. Alam kong siya din nasasaktan.

Then I was taken back to reality when I heard a car parked infront of the house. It took a few seconds before I heard my phone ring.

It was Miguel calling me. Pagtingin ko sa orasan sa phone ko, it's already closed to 9 in the evening.