this familiar feeling that takes over me
this familiar place from where i no longer want to escape
trying and trying, i'm so sick of it.
people who don't know what this place does to me.
people trying to help me, that end up disappointed at me
i feel like i'm going crazy, like this was meant ot be
like i'm losing a battle that i didn't even begin.
i hide in my fort, tears finally staining my face.
"i can't even ask for help, guilt is killing me"
"i'm afraid people know, shame is killing me"
but little did i know, that wasn't what was killing me
people who don't know what this place does to me.
people trying to help me, that end up disappointed at me.
i feel like i'm going crazy, like this was meant to be
like i'm playing a game, only a few know how to play.
can't even breathe, how am i supposed to carry on with life to even begin with
now my days are cold and dark, no sight of color on them.
they treat me with care,
they really don't know if i'll break
i can't even think straight
so i go back to sleep
where everything's still perfect
and lacks reality
