at night i make myself cry
hoping for a feeling different than numbness to fill my body completely.
getting high on this sadness pill, addicted.
but as expected
tears won't fall
and i will forever be stuck in this void feeling
hoping for a better one to finally drown me
choke me
beat me up
rather be broken than empty
rather live aching than indifferent
i'm begging on my knees
please listen to my plea
kill me if you want
but mother don't let me live this life of apathy and dullness
mother don't let me live this feeling-less life
