I'm Waiting, Hyung.

Chapter 15: Fuck u dude.

V POV

It's been 6 days since the last time I talk to Jin Hyung, I've been locking myself up in my room whenever I get the chance just so I don't have to socialize with my members or anyone else, But since I'm an Idol I had to get out and practice our upcoming music, I didn't have choice, but then again it didn't mean I should socialize. So I didn't. 

"Dude, want some water?" I look up to see Jimin. 

Ah yeah that's right, Jimin was the only member who I actually talk to.. Since he was the person who knows about my feelings, although I never did tell him what happened and why I'm like this, he didn't care though, he just wanted to be there for me. I was thankful. 

I nodded.

I miss talking to my members... I miss talking to Jin Hyung . It was painful for me to not talk to them, but they all understood that I didn't want to talk  so they left me alone. At the same time that's not what I wanted. 

" Jin Hyung, that's the wrong move. Do it again" Jhope chuckles. Jin Hyung tried again, but he ended up tripping on his own foot. 

" Fuck! No one saw that!" He  chuckles in embarrassment, but everyone burst out laughing at how adorable he was, surprise I found myself laughing as well. 

You're pathetic V.. I know you want to talk to Jin Hyung and everyone else, hell even Jungkook.. what the hell is stopping you? Are you scared? Are you embarrassed? ...Shut the fuck up...

I stood up and went straight to the bathroom to wash my face , but more of wanting to let my emotion wash out of me.

I want to talk to them...Why can't I do it!? I don't want to be like this forever... what can I possibly do though? They're going to ask me what had happened.. then how am I supposed to answer their question when I can't even tell them the truth! Especially to him... FUCKING SHIT!. 

I glared at the mirror to see how tired I was. I have a big eye bag under my eyes, and it looks like I lost weight. Still handsome though. I chuckled in annoyance to realize that that's what Jin Hyung would say if he was beside me right now. It fucking hurts..

" Everyone's worried about you" Startled, I turned around to see Jungkook. 

" What the hell? Why didn't I hear you coming in?" He grinned.

" I'm the golden maknae, what do you expect VV?" He went to the sink and started washing his hands. Dammit.

" Jin Hyung, is really worried about you. Don't you know that?" He turned off the faucet and faced me. 

" Why should he worry about me? He has you doesn't he?"  I bit my lip in anger until I tasted blood. It doesn't hurt though, it's nothing compared to the heavy weight of my heart right now.

" He does have me, doesn't he?" I want to leave.

" But.. It's doesn't mean he'll feel complete when you're not beside him." I glance at Jungkook to see him looking at me. 

What the hell is he talking about! Jin Hyung loves him! He loves him more than he loves me! I was there! I saw them! I heard them!!

" He doesn't need me.. like I said he has you. Back in the hospital he even told you he loves you as well, didn't he." I was about to walk away, wanting to leave because I knew my emotions would burts, when he suddenly grabbed me by the arm.

" So.. that's what this is about?" We stared at each other, It was so quiet. It felt like we stood there forever. Until I shook my hand away, at least I tried to. 

" Let me go." I glared. But he shook his head and chuckled.

" He did. He told me he loves me very much. We even hugged." Fucking shit. fucking shit. fucking shit!

 Just like back in the carnival, I lost it again. 

" You're like a brother to me Jungkook, This hyung loves you very much...but fuck you dude!" Not able to contain it anymore I grabbed him by his collar and pinned him against the wall. 

Glaring at him I felt every pressure on my body tingle, it's has only been 3 seconds but it felt like it was more than that. 

Am I really going to hurt him? Am I going to put all my anger out on him. It's his fault, but this isn't right. No matter what he's still my maknae, we had good memories, we laughed, smiled, cried together. He was always there whenever I was sad, he made me laugh. Me and him were the closest member, we're always together and... We both love Jin Hyung. I love him down to earth, but I can't help but feel anger and hatred towards him. I don't want to hurt him....

" Hyung..." I glance at him to see him staring at me. No I don't want to do it. I don't want to. 

" Pabo, You didn't let me finish." Huh?

" We even hugged but..he called me brother afterwards." He smiles.

" What?" I stared at him confused? Angry? sad? I don't even know I was having mixed feelings. 

" Hyung, don't you get it?.. I got rejected." he chuckles. Letting him go, unexpectedly I saw tears trickle down his cheeks. What?

" I got rejected, without him even knowing what I meant by it." He smiled, but tears continues to run down his face. I could see the pain in his smile, I could see it all, but yet he continues to smile. Stop smiling...

"I got rejected." He covered his face.

"Jin Hyung..he..." He painfully smiles.

"I got rejected, Hyung" I embraced him.