I'm Waiting, Hyung.

Chapter 19 part 1: Can't you hear me?

V POV

It's been a week since the incident happened. Jin Hyungs accident flooded all across the media and the news, theories and beliefs were scattered everywhere while no one knew what really happened, except for us.

Many people wanted to interview us, to talk about the awful incident, but we refused to talk to anyone as we didn't feel like dressing up, fixing ourselves, and going anywhere but home or the hospital.

I find myself sitting on a chair, holding, and warming Jin Hyungs hands. I look down to see tubes and mask stuck to Jin hyung's body and mouth, probably the things that are keeping him alive. I think they're called "Intubate"... His legs and arms are both in cast.

He continued to lay there in the same position, breathing, sleeping, fighting...

" V, you should go home and take a bath. I'll stay with Jin Hyung" Not looking away from Jin Hyung's face, I knew who it was.

" I'm okay Jimin. Did you get the flowers?" I held on Jin's hand tighter hoping it would wake him, up even though I knew he wouldn't.

" Yeah, but you should really go home. Jungkook and Suga are coming back, We can take care of him dude. Go home, take a shower and get some sleep."

Sleeping? Jin Hyung would be sleeping for more than 2 months. That's right, when all of us members were waiting outside the room for the result, waiting when our clothes were soaked with blood, we waited for the doctor to come out so that we would know if our Hyung was still with us.

Our heart dropped when the doctor said he was in a coma for possibility more than 2 months. We were happy that he would live, but knowing he could still be greatly damaged for sleeping that long didn't stop us from mourning from morning to night.

Our director continued us with the practicing for our new upcoming music, but prevented any interview or performance for the meantime. We didn't create any new music because we all knew that it wouldn't be the same if we were missing one star vocal in our band. It broke everyone's heart to not hear the pink princess voice in the room.

" Taehyung, are you listening?" I glance behind me to see Jimin standing there still. He was wearing a plain white t shirt and a black pants. He wore no makeup and left his hair uncombed.

"Alright, I'll go home." I stood up entangling my hands from Jin Hyung. My hands suddenly felt empty and cold.

"Taehyung. It wasn't your fault okay. It was no ones fault." I stopped and stared at the handle of the door for good 5 seconds.

"Okay. " I turned the doorknob and left. I heard what he said loud and clear, but it exited out of my thoughts quickly.

That's what they all said. It's wasn't my fault, I had nothing to do with it. I didn't do this to him, but no matter what they said the guilt in my heart couldn't sweep it away. I couldn't stop thinking about the other outcome if I just did this and that. That if I just carried him on my back, then maybe he wouldn't be laying in that fucking bed, sleeping.

It didn't take me long to get home where I saw the other members getting ready.

" V, Jimin called me letting me know you would arrive, So I got the bath ready for you." Rm said as he puts on his shoes. I could tell he just got out of the shower, cause his hair was still wet.

" Hm. Thanks." I took my shoes off and went straight to the bathroom where I passed a couple of rooms, including Jin Hyung's room. I stopped and stood there, as I felt my heart begins to ache again.

" Are you alright dude?"Out of nowhere I saw Jhope walking in front of me. He looks really tired.

It took me a couple of second to answer that and finally decided to be honest for once.

" I don't think anyone is alright." I replied as I smile. I tried to at least.

I entered my room, dropped my bag and sat there for about 1 minute staring nothing but the roof.

So much things happened, and it wasn't fair. Does this world hate me so much, is this my karma for hurting my members and being so goddamn selfish? Is this my karma for believing that I could be with Jin Hyung? My karma for loving him?.... It wasn't fair. It just wasn't fair that things were ending up like this. I was so happy when I was with them and then all of the sudden that happiness of mine was ripped and shredded to pieces as I witness Jin Hyung lying on his own pool of blood.

I bit my lip and held back my tears.

I couldn't erase the images in my head from that night, and almost every day I dreamt about it. I couldn't console it to my members because I knew they they were also having the same issues, I saw it.

We were still there for each other, but we also couldn't help but feel that their presence were distant. It was no ones fault. Everyone was falling into their dark pit, but all of us were holding on tight with each other. Hoping no one would fall.

Someone knocked on my door and instantly remembered Jin Hyung with his cup of Hot cocoa.

"Taehyung, the bath is ready." I sat up to see Jungkook there, standing with his normal get up, Sweat pants and jacket.

I remembered what he said, remembered it so clearly. "WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED!" It echoed through my head, I could even recall his expression and how deep and scared his eyes were. I could remember everyone, It was a painful memory that I couldn't erase.

" I know." My voice sounded rusty. I sat up and rested my forehead against the palm of my hands. Don't cry...

Then I felt his hands on my shoulders as he patted them.

" He's going to be fine, V. Don't give up. " I look up to see him, and without 3 seconds of observing I can tell he has been crying. His eyes were puffy. but he smiled, then left the room.

I got off my bed and grabbed my clothes to change into. A plain black T- shirt and a blue pants to go along with it.

I went to the bathroom to see my reflection in the mirror, and realized why Jimin was so worried. I saw how shitty I look.

My hair looks like it hasn't been combed for three days straight, I had a big eye bag under my eyes and it seems like I haven't been sleeping, which is a fact.

I turned on the faucet and let the hot water flow down my whole body as I felt refreshed and relax, But knowing that my members were off to go to the hospital and the loud noises that the water was making caused me to pour the pain out of my heart that I've been holding onto and began screaming my tears out as millions of people could hear it, but no one could, no one can, no one except for me....

My heart wanted nothing more but to have our Hyung back in our arms...