I'm Waiting, Hyung.

Chapter 17, part 1: I'm sorry, Hyung.

V POV

laying on my bed as I stare at the roof, I've been like that for 30 minutes now not only because I was really tired, but a lot happened today especially with Jungkook...

Jungkook...

I couldn't stop thinking about him, couldn't get the image of him crying onto my arms out, how he smiled even though he was in so much pain. It actually broke my heart to see him like this, to see him smile and laugh with the others afterwards. I wanted to cry with him, but I know I didn't have the right to.

Would it be better if I just give up on him?...

thud thud

I slowly look at the door, and slowly got up when all of the sudden a voice was heard behind it, a voice that made my heart flutter but also made my head spin with questions that couldn't be answered... It was Jin Hyung.

" V, I made you some hot cocoa... Do you want it?" Shit....I...Should I open the door? I want to see him, but...after what happened with Jungkook... I don't know if I have the balls to face him.

My heart was beating really fast, not only because I want to see him, but because I was nervous to know that maybe I really do have a chance to be with him or maybe not... Open it V...Open it..

I reached for the handle, but stood there like that for a couple of minutes until I heard him again

" Well.. I know you want it, so I'll just leave it here by your door..." He's leaving?... wait.. no..I want to see you....I want to talk to you....I want to see you smile at me again..but..why can't I turn the doorknob?...Why can't I fucking do it!?

"See ya." fuck!

Not being able to restrain myself anymore I twisted the doorknob as the light in the hallway shined through my dark room. I took a step outside to see a wide broaden shoulders and a face that gave him the title of " Worldwide handsome", Jin Hyung was standing there, surprise to see me in front of him..

" Taehyung... You" Jin hyung looked at me puzzled.

"Ji-Jin Hyung... I...Can we talk?" I look at him straight in the eyes.

I'm scared, I said I would talk to him... but I don't even know what to say to him. Where do I even start? what do I even say? Can I really even tell him the truth? fuck, my stomach is getting upset... it's okay, why are you so afraid of! this is Jin Hyung for crying out loud!.. still what happened with Jungkook was beginning to get to me.

I look up again to see him standing still, still looking at me...He's not saying anything..Shit maybe this wasn't a good idea...

"Ah ah ah ah.. it's okay if you don't want to Hyung.. I'll jus-" Then warmth filled my whole entire body within less than 2 seconds, to realize that Jin Hyung was hugging me.

Hyung... he's... he's hugging me...why-why is he hugging me? Unexpected at all my heart began raising, my cheeks began to burn in the most painful way, but my chest and heart was over filled with happiness and comfort.

"Pabo! No! of course I want to talk to you, It's been something I been wanting to do, but couldn't because of you! I thought you were angry with me, angry at something that I did that I didn't even realize. Don't you know how long I've been thinking about you, how worried we were, How worried I was! Even Eomuk and Odengie were worried about you!" He burst out

He hugged me even tighter, sending shivers down to my whole body.

Goddammit...I hate myself..Everyone was so worried about me, Jin Hyung has been worried sick about me, but I shut them off because of this heartbroken of mine that shouldn't have been broken from the start. Because of how scared and weak I am, I caused so much trouble to my members, especially to Jungkook and Jin Hyung, but still... They still love me, they still care, no matter how broken and sad they were because of me.. They're still here for me...

"Even your sugar glider pets are worried about me?" I chuckled, but he only nodded as I heard him sniffle.

I wrapped my arms around Jin Hyung, buried my face against his shoulders and suddenly felt home. I love him, I really love him. No matter how broken I am and depressed I can be, all of my members would be there, He would be there for me, and they would fix me right away. If only I could tell them how much this heartbroken V loves them, I would.

" I'm sorry Hyung, I'm really sorry for being a pabo. I shouldn't have shut you all off like that." I began to feel a heavy weight leave my chest and shoulders.

" I'm really sorry, Hyung" I feel him slowly let go and so I did the same.

We stared at each other and I could see that he cried, but he smiles at me, then he bumped his forehead against mine. Ack!

"OWWWW!!!!" I held my forehead, feeling as if it would fall any minute if I let it go.

"Hyung! what was that for!?" I groaned, but I could hear him chuckling under his breath.

" That's for making us worry fucker!! Actually that bump isn't enough! Let me give you another one!"

"NO! Hyung!" Quickly hugging him by the waist It prevented him from head butting me again. At least for now.

"Hyung, hyung, hyung, hyung! Why don't we go out with our members and eat outside! That sounds nice, right? Yeah that sounds nice! Let's go!" he stops struggling and glance at me.

"You're treat?" I knew he would say that.

"Yes, Yes! my treat.. just don't head butt me!" He smiled and nodded.

"DEAL!" he lets go of me and began walking away. I stood there, still feeling the sting on my forehead.

Jeez, His forehead must be made out of metal.

"Well, come one V! let's tell the others" He smiles at me, waiting for me to walk beside him.

I want to be with them, I want to be with him. I shouldn't be scared anymore. I love Jin Hyung, I really do and if having to keep fighting is a way for me to reach him then I'll do it. I'll do it for myself and for my members. I won't run away anymore.

I smiled back, finally being able to smile like this with him again. I grabbed the hot cocoa that he made for me and made my way to him, made our way to our members.