"Ashton?" I say with my voice cracking. "Kyler! Oh my god! Where are you?" He says worry thick in his voice. I start to feel more and more sobered up. I think about it hard. "I am back home, My friend Becca invited me to a party, so I decided to go." I reply trying not to lose myself. "Kyler, you need to listen to me. You're uncle is in jail. Your neighbors heard what happened and called police as soon as it happened. We were gone by the time the police arrived. Please come back. Kyler, Im begging." Ashton begs. "Ashton, I don't know. I'm scared. Not only for me but for the other people I hang with. I just can't right now. I'm sorry." I begin to cry and press the hang up button.
Ashton's P.O.V.
"Kyler! HELLO?" She hung up on me. I remember her telling me she was from Jamestown. I flew here with out knowing where she lived. God I'm so stupid!
I was about to through my phone when it started to ring. " hello?" I said.
"Ashton don't worry, Michael tracked her phone and she is at a frat house." Calum said. "SHES AT A WHAT?!" I scream running my hands through my hair. Someone like her should not be alone there. Anything could happen. I take a few e breaths to calm down. " okay, give me the address.
Kyler's P.O.V.
I sit outside, still thinking about my conversation with Ashton. Its been an hour since and I'm still sitting outside. I hear the door open behind me and heavy footsteps. I turn around and see Max making his way over to me. "Geez, Its cold out here. Why are you out here?" He says with his voice only a bit slurred. "I'm just thinking about some stuff." I say looking at my hands. I feel him staring at me and my cheeks begin to heat up. I shivered because of the cold and Max shrugged his jacket off and put it over my shoulders. "Now, Would you like to tell me whats going on? Because you are not the Happy Kyler I grew up with." I nod and think about how I should start. I tell him a short version of the story leaving out Ashton and everyone else. He steps forward and I think he is going to give me a hug but he kisses me instead. I'm standing still not moving from shock. I am unable to push him away because of being frozen in place while his lips are on mine.
"wow and to think I came all this way for y you." I hear a familiar voice say. Finally gaining back my senses I push max away and turn to the voice. I stare at him in disbelief "Ash? What are you doing here?" he scoffed and walked off. I ran after him screaming begging him to stop. When finally he did but wouldn't turn to face me." ash?" I said, my voice breaking. " Ashton look at me please!" I begged.
He slowly turned around and relief rushed over me. "Ash I-" "No." he says harshly.
" You have talked enough. It's my turn I think you owe me that." I nodded not saying anything waiting for him to speak.
He was silent for awhile, opening his mouth to speak but then quickly closing it. God I wish he would just tell me what he was thinking the silence was driving me crazy! "Ashton?" I whisper
" You know how selfish you are!" I jumped taken aback. " you keep telling yourself you are protecting us but really you are just protecting yourself. I know that because even after I told you your uncle was in jail you wouldn't come back." he said stepping closer. " But you're not just scared of your uncle your scared of being with someone. You're afraid of being loved. Not just by me but everyone around you. Michaela hell even calum, micheal, and Luke. We all love you and you are to damn scared to see that we would do anything for you!" he said taking a break to compose himself.
"You're right Ashton. I am afraid to fall in love because it always turns out where they are either done with me or dead. Look at me in the eye and tell me its easy to let someone you love go. That right there is the problem Ashton. You all would be willing to get yourself seriously hurt if it meant helping me and I don't want that! Do you really think It was easy for me leaving. The whole way traveling here, I had to tell myself, Its for the best. I don't want to be responsible for anyone getting hurt because of me too many people already have been hurt. " I said tears falling down my face.
"no. See right there," he said pointing at me "is the problem you need to stop blaming yourself for everything. Your parents death wasn't your fault and me going to the hospital sure as hell wasn't your fault!" " But if you wouldn't ha-"
" No! I chose you Kyler! I chose you and that means I chose all your crazy shit too. Nothing you do will make me stop loving you not even if you tell me that you don't love me. I will love you through all your problems and thorough all the annoying little things you do because I can't live without you." He was about to say somthing else but I cut him off by kissing him. It felt like forever since I've done that when really it was only a few days. Ashton pulled me closer kissing me back like it would be the last time.
When we pulled apart I held his face in my hands and looked into hos eyes, the tears still streaming down my face. "I'm sorry. I'm truly sorry. I know you told me to stop blaming myself but I have caused so much pain to you and the boys, I just didn't know what to do, I thought running away would help but all it did was make things worse." I apologize looking into his eyes. He pulled me into a hug. "God Kyler, have you been eating?" He asks. "Yes Ashton, I have been at this party for hours sweating." I say with a small smile. "I'm kinda tired. Do you want to stay at my place tonight?" I ask hoping he would say yes. He looked at me and nodded. I smiled as he grabbed my hand and I walked him back to my place. As we walked hand in hand, we were silent. But it was a peaceful silence.
I decide to break the silence."Thank you." I said. He frowned obviously confused " For what?" I looked up at him smiling. " for loving me. Thank you for loving me. That's the only thing I could ever ask for." He smiled and pulled me closer.
"I wouldn't want to love anyone else."
