Poetry

What you deserve

These Nights i feel so tired

Want to sleep but im suffocating

No use crying over a guy

But my body wont listen

It shivers and dies

I wish him well and all happiness

Because even if im mad

There is no point

We have nothing left

but regret

Of a useless life

Im not saying that i want him back

Im saying how sad it is

How useless i really was in trying to fix him

Or maybe i was selfish

and wanted it all to myself

Maybe im jealous of the new girl who helped him out

I cause nothing but pain

And she helps him

However my heart only grieves

because They will have  a Better love than i did

But do they know what love is

How would they love each other

She loves him and he loves her

Forgetting that i was once something

I feel bad for all the girls who were once

before me

Because now im on my knees screaming

What the fuck have you done to me

I just wanted a relationship so sweet

But it turned the other cheek

And you werent the one for me

You deserve hate

But i cant help but cry

Because of how sad it is

How lonely you are in the inside

You need to stop going from girl to girl

That wont help you in life

You wont find your mistakes

You will Only make the same ones

And its all because of me

I blame it on myself

Cause thats who i am

If i couldve helped you

Then where would we stand

Would we be friends

But that would equally hurt

I would have to listen to how you flirt

to all those girls

Who try to win your heart

But your heart is given away to the one you just met that day

Memories just like that forgotten in a storm

I cant believe you would say that

After you say how hard it is to forget

So the only thing i can do is forgive

Because your an asshole who deserves all that is coming

You deserve the pain and the backlash from loving

If you only knew how dumb you really are

Because if you were smart you wouldnt have gone that far

How could you date someone new

When you cant even help yourself

Relying on a girl to on

and help you out

( ^1 in the morning, v Now in the night)

My mistake was relying on you

when i couldnt help myself

Look where we stand now

Empty and lost

But i always remember to bring matches when im lost in the dark

I found myself.

-Masked C