Crystal (Magcon Boys)

Chapter Sixteen.

I have to admit it, I'm completely and utterly in love with Shawn's voice. It's so angelic and sweet. I swear I feel relaxed when I hear it.

"That's all that I have so far. It's so frustrating I can't write anything else." Shawn cries brushing his hair with his hands.

I look at him and press my upper and bottom lips together into a flat line. "Let me think." I say, searching for files inside my head that could help in anyway. I've never actually been the most inspirational person ever and that has it's perks. It also has it's disadvantages, like this situation.

"This sucks." He continues to whine.

"Don't be like that, Shawn! I'm here to help don't loose hope." I calm him, softly touching his arm. He looks at me quietly for a moment, his eyes couldn't be more connected with mine. I feel like he is looking right through me and I'm not quite sure if I'm totally comfortable with it. "Here, let's see what we have so far."

Yeah, I totally ruined the moment didn't I? Yep, I did. It was for the best, though, wasn't it?

I read the lyrics carefully, trying to let the words inspire me somehow and take my imagination away to find something else to fit in the music.

"Okay, so we have," I clear my throat to read the paper, "Take your shot it might be scary."

He looks at me and I shut my eyes closed. Last time, when I helped him with this song, it was the memories I had with Steve helped me. It was him that brought me the inspiration I needed. Now, I don't really feel inspirational when I think about him. I don't know why, maybe I'm slowly getting over him or maybe I'm still angry about yesterday. All I know is that I don't miss him nor think about him like I did these past few weeks. That's good news I guess. I mean, in a way, I kind of saw it coming. I knew that one way or another I was going to forget him. However, at the same time my memories with him are fading away, I feel like a small, yet significant part of me is slowly disappearing with it. That breaks my heard a little.

But that's just one of the symptoms of breaking up with your boyfriend.

"How about..." I mutter, "Hearts are gonna break?".

He frowns, thinking about it.

"I'm telling you, take your shot it might be scary," he sings, "Hearts are gonna break."

I smile at his voice. Am I ever going to get tired of his voice? Nope, I don't think so.

"Cause we don't have the time to be sorry." He continues.

I quickly look at him, surprised and unfamiliar with that part he sang.

"Woah, where did this came from?" I ask.

He chuckles and shrugs. "I don't know," he says looking down at his guitar. "I guess you broke the block in my head."

He looks up and our eyes meet again. For a unknown reason my heart starts racing and I get a feeling I havn't felt in a really long time. No, actually it's not for a unknown reason. It's all him, he is the one to blame. Just being here with him. He makes me feel this way.

What I needed to be feeling is guilt. I should be feeling bad for calling Jack and lying to him saying the we would have to see each other another time because I was sick when in reality, I'm right here with Shawn. There is a part of me who wan't me to hate myself for doing this, for lying to Jack. But there is also a part of me who doesn't regret a single thing.

That part is taking over me right now.

Shawn's cologne gets stronger, not because he was getting closer. Every inch of him was closer and just when I could feel his hot breath I move my head away.