🍁📎Writing My Way...📎🍁

Searching for my lost drive

Growing up, I didn't think much of myself. I just knew I was an ordinary girl. Nothing seemed of much importance to me . I just went through the motions of living. I finished my primary school in this frame of mind. i think that's the main reason i remember very little of my life in those years.

Joining high school is when I began to really look at the world around me. I met all kinds of people, Learnt things I had never heard of. That was the joy of being in school for me. Learning new things. I didn't know how to act there though. I became self conscious and uncomfortable at first. But then one day I said to myself. What the hell, I won't change who I am to cater for all these people's perceptions of what a girl ought to look like and act. I decided to be me and to mind my business.

There was so much happening then, but what stands out is me and my cousin k always being sent home to collect school dues. All the time. Every time. We were sad about that then. But never angry at anyone because we knew it was inevitable. So every time a teacher in charge came to call out those to go home for school fees collection, we automatically arranged our belongings because we knew our names couldn't miss on that list. And that was always the case.

One day as I was home after one of those days at school, something came to me, something i can't seem to grasp or remember to date. I was seated in one of the beds at home. It was a metallic former double - decker bed we had slept in since we were Little. Its in that bed that the idea came to me. I had a chemistry book or was it physics that belonged to my elder cousin. I remember reading it almost from front to back out of sheer idleness.

After a week maybe we returned to school. We studied. The exams came. I aced all of them. Surprising even my self. That was the beginning of a whole new chapter in my life.

So today, these past few days, I have been searching in my mind for that,whatever it was, that drove me to be the best I could ever be. That which made me leave my comfort zone as a simple ordinary girl to a brilliant extraordinary student.

I do hope and pray that I find that drive very soon.