🍁📎Writing My Way...📎🍁

Some call it love

I have fallen in and out of it so many times , I don't know how to call it anymore. It seems to me like a vicious cycle..

The beginning.

A girl meets a boy. It could be physically or online . they talk for a while, exchange numbers and promise to talk more . Boy asks girl out , girl is excited to meet some one new because duh it's not everyday that you meet someone you like for no apparent reason and that person is willing to talk and be friends. So the texting begins..

The middle

It's now 80% clear girl likes boy. Meaning girl is in love with boy. So she convinces herself. She is so certain about her feelings that she tries to share this with boy. Boy says okay. Period. No exclamations of I love you or whatever girl wants to hear. And I think these could be the possible reasons for each's behavior.

Girl - is still childish, very single, has little experience in matters of the heart, too trusting, desperate .

Boy- has a girlfriend he loves, has girlfriends, is just looking for a friend only, is looking for a perfect female, just doesn't know what he wants...

So this is what happens, boy reluctantly agrees to enter this relationship. He hopes he can pass time here( with girl) till he gets some one better. Girl on the other hand is happy boy entered the relationship but also worried. She knows deep down that boy isn't even 50% in this with her. But she wants to get him to 100%. She thinks if she begs, cajoles, coerces, bribes and does whatever is humanely possible she will get boy to commit completely. I haven't heard or seen any people where this worked out favorably for either party .

The end.

Girl becomes suspicious of every little thing boy does. He delays to text back- he is cheating, texting while at home - he is cheating, returns home late- he is cheating, cancels a date - he is taking another girl out. The end result is girl is angry , green with envy, unhappy and wondering if she did the right thing settling for boy. She thinks maybe she should just get out and start afresh. Boy on the other hand is frustrated with girls' jealous rants and maybe feeling guilty because her accusations could be true. So he thinks to himself, I should tell her the truth. I should tell her I was never and will never be fully committed to you girl. Wise and compassionate boys do that. However greedy and stupid boys lie through their teeth. They want to have them all. How this ends for them I dono

What I do know is wise girl tells boy I think this is not working, I am not happy because of ABC , u can't seem to be capable of giving me what I crave. So let's go our separate ways. I don't wanna say foolish but lemme say it, foolish girl wants to hold on to boy who can't give her what she needs. She thinks it's okay to cry all these tears, to worry, to spend sleepless nights , to do whatever foolish thing because of boy... She says it's all for love.

But is it really love?