Can Love Be Happiness

Chapter 6: The Sunset

        It had been about two months since Felix and I just started training. Although I really can't keep track of time very well, it at least felt like two months. We practiced sword fighting, knife throwing, archery, and hand to hand combat for long periods of the days. I was glad that I changed into the lost boy clothes because they started to wear slightly as I went through so much rigorous training. My night gown wouldn't have lasted a week, but I still wore it at night to get more comfortable but making sure I changed before Pan saw me in it. I was still getting use to calling this place home since I can never leave, maybe I should just call it home. The worst part of it was Pan, trying to flirt with me, touching me, and saying dirty comments, some of them work and we made out (just a little) and it never went any further before I pulled away and walked in the other direction. I couldn't just ignore a gorgeous boy basically calling for me, I am still a teenage girl. I could tell the lost boys didn't really like me and Pan together by the look on their faces as we would step out of bushes or a tent together, but they never said a word about it at least not to me. I had met most of the boys that have been there forever like the boys who were 16, Rider, Leo, and Jace, then the 15 year old's Jack and Max, the 13 year old's Ben and Nate, then only one was 10, Ethan.  I already knew that Pan and Felix were 17, of course they are the same age, I smirked as I thought of how much they acted alike in so many different ways.

"Whatcha thinking about?" Felix asked bringing me out of my thoughts and back to cleaning my dagger. I smirked at him and giggled as his hood fell down in his face covering his eyes. I stood up and walked over and sat on the the rock next to him and lifted his hood higher to show his deep blues eyes, aah that was better.

"Just about how amazing the island and you guys are" I told on reviling the half truth, I don't think pan is amazing I think he's a monster. Felix just nodded and went back to cleaning his dagger with the rough piece of hide. I stared at him as he cleaned the perfect blade knowing what I wanted to do.

"Would you care to join me for a walk tonight" he asked quietly as if trying not to let pan hear I nodded fast and turned towards my dagger keeping a smile to myself.

        As the sun was beginning to set, Felix and I just stared over the ocean as the sun went down, its rays of light kissing the turquoise blue water. We just talked as the sun kept getting closer towards the water.

"It's beautiful" a thought reached my mouth, did I say that out loud? Felix  nodded in awe then he looked at me so I looked back.

He looked like that he was afraid to say something "Almost as much as you" he told me looking relieved and worried. Our faces started inching forward as his hands fell on my face as our lips touched. As they pulled apart we just looked at each other both looked digested as our mouths unhitched.

"Well that was awkward" Felix murmured at me I just nodded and looked down.

"It felt like kissing my brother, not that your a bad kisser-...that you and I aren't right for each other" I told him trying not to make him upset. Even when she kissed pan a jolt of electricity went through her warming her body but nothing with Felix. "I'm not saying we can't talk any more now and ignore one and other, so maybe just friends?" I asked him with plea in my voice as sad puppy dog eyes rose in me.

"Just friends" he confirmed and with that we walked up to the camp just as friends nothing more or less.

        When we entered the camp me and Felix said good night and I headed for my tent. Before I could even open the door flap Pan appeared in front of me, ugh what now. He eyed me up and down, then he did the smirk, why did he have to do the smirk I melts me and I'm putty in his hands.

"Yes Pan?" I tried to sound relaxed as butterflies frantically trying to get out of my stomach.

"Come to my tent in five minutes" he declared turning around walking towards his tent. "Oh, and wear your night gown" I could barely hear him say it but could tell there was a huge smirk of his face, what a creep.

I entered my tent and took off the stuffy clothing from earlier and then slipping on my cool satin night gown. I pulled my hair out of the braid I was wearing and it turned into beautiful waves cascading down past my light blue eyes. I finally felt pretty in the longest time I could remember, not even a single boy courted me in the Enchanted Forest so it didn't make me feel to good. Maybe that's why I kissed Felix because he said I was beautiful, I pushed the feelings down needing to follow pan's orders. I took deep breaths and headed for Pan's tent , there is no telling what he would do to her this time. 

        I open his tent's flap and casually walked in not trying to show my fear. He looked up from his desk, smirked, and walked towards me.

"It's about damn time" he whispered trying to sound seductive but only made her giggle.

"You asked me to get dressed" I said pompously just looking at him. His eyes wonder all over my body like his was judging my appearance.

"You did an outstanding job, so what I wanted you for..." he picked me up by my waist so fast I didn't have to react and tossed me onto his cot and slowly slid next to me.

"Wo wo what do you think your doing" I asked as he slowly began to kiss my neck and I held a moan back with all my strength, damn this is hard.

"I'm spooning with my lost girl, now flip over" he told me and did I was just so shocked that it wasn't something more than spooning, it always was with Pan. Still kissing me down my arm and neck he kept moving towards me slowly. Then I felt something touch my ass, I was blushing yet grossed out so much, turned my head towards him.

"Peter are you just excited to see me or what?" I asked a bit stern and he stoped kissing me looking confused but then realization came to him and he blushed. He looked down in between us and picked up the thing that was still touching my ass and brought it up to my face so could see, his pipe.

"Whoops I must have forgotten about this, but don't get you hopes up love because the night is still young" he smirked at me I just rolled my eyes going back my previous postion. We just laid there in silence for a long time till he broke it by clearing his throat.

"So... what were you and Felix doing alone, on the beach, during sunset?" he asked dryly. 

"Well we watched the sun go down together" I told him "Why do you want to know?" starting to feel butterflies again.

"Just checking up on my lost girl" I heard him faintly mumble, now I faced my body towards him and investigating his eyes.

"Mhmm... or it could be that you jealous!" I asked him giggling with satisfaction his face turned red, clenched his teeth and then rolled over. I wrapped my arms around him brushing back his hair trying not to get to mad so he doesn't kill her.

"Pan",

"Huh".

"I'm sorry, there is no need to be jealous".

He then turned over looking at me and I was looking at him and we fell asleep this way.