The Demon's Love✓

chapter 38

I hear a loud thud , just like someone fell on the ground on their knees, I open my eyes to see Damian grabbing his hairs in his both hands, knife is now on the ground, covered with his blood.

Keeping myself together, I crawl to him . Grabbing his hands into mine softly, I undo them from his hairs and he doesn't dare to look up at me for some reasons , I can see the struggle, the pain, the cuts , the watery eyes. He's trying hard to get himself together.

"Get away from me" he merely whispers becuase of the pain caused by the cuts from knife.

"No, I'm not leaving" I whisper back as I grab knife which was fallen on the floor  and throw it away at the farthest corner of this big room so he doesn't try to grab it again to harm him or me.

"Look at me" I whisper slowly ,  but he doesn't look at me at all. He's tired. Maybe he's not even considering my words. Maybe he's thinking just about self harming again or maybe he's just thinking when I'm gonna leave, but I won't give up.

"Look at me Damian" I raise my voice a bit and I can see a bit movement , his eyes are slowly going upto my face to meet my watery eyes.

"Why?"

I get a bit taken aback with his sudden question at this situation.

"What why?!" I say with my brows all up in tension , goodness this boy gives me chills! Why he have this big effect on me? It's not good!

"Why you are struggling with me so much?! I am going to give you for sacrifice anyway"

"Exactly" I say as I take my hands back to myself.

"What do you mean?"

"I'll be sacrificed , it's way better!"

"Be more clear"

"I don't have anywhere to go anymore, no aunt , no home, it'll be better if I don't live anymore...."

I don't hear any reply back so I look at his face to see his reaction.

I can see a bit of pain on his face but I can't tell if it's from cuts or the fact that I'm lonely?

He stands up silently , so do I, following his actions.

"Pack your bags, lana came to get us, we have to finish this" he says quietly. I'm not surprised. I know he won't care much

So I just walk towards my room slowly, thinking my end is so near.

I pack up my bags as tears roll down from my eyes. I wish everything was just dream. Oh I wish I never ever gave that University exam.

I miss everything since childhood. Is it never going to come back? Am I never going to see this world as a free person again?

Just one last time I wanna see what's been outside as a free person..... But I think..... I have to die just like a prisoner.

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"Come down fast idiot" that goth lady Lana screams and I jump out of my bed in shock. I overslept again!! Ugh!

I take my bag , going downstairs. Seeing the goth lady not even looking at me or responding to my presence.

"Damian!" She screams again making me flinch.

"Don't shout Lana" he comes downstairs and his eyes meets mine, I just don't respond to him. I think, it's now in my nature too.

I see he also have bags packed

As we go outside of the mansion I can see goth lady smiling more widely as she approaches the car we are going to get into.

As she sits infront she smiles ear to ear

"Let's go home!"

She chuckles to the driver and car starts. Why is she so happy? And also where are we going?

As I car starts to move down the road , I see people walking freely here to there and a tear rolls down to my cheek from my eye. What I've gotten myself into? Why this hurts so much?

Can I die as fast as I can? This is torture.