The Demon's Love✓

chapter - 42

*Damian's pov*

Why is she silent? Why is she acting so careless? Shouldn't she be afraid? I hate when someone hides their emotions like they are not feeling any thing.

It's a sign that she has lost all the hope. She doesn't want to live? She's not scared of anything. She's just going to get herself sacrificed? Isn't she going to deny or even try to get to know when and what is going to happen to her?

I know I shouldn't be this much worried but I can't sleep right now. I don't know why , but I AM worried. I'm sad and irritated that she lost herself! Damn that Kiley! We all told her to not to love her that much that she can't lose Kiley! But she did. She's stupid woman.

Not only Jen is hurt but Kiley is hurt too. She isn't coming here and the reason is Jen. She can't see Jen getting hurt. She loved her so much that now kiley herself doesn't want to face Jen. She used to call me and ask me how's Jen doing. She's worried about her, she just can't show it now.

I am not gonna disagree with Kiley. I don't know how Jen will react when Kiley would try to come back into her life as her aunt again? Jen is not a toy. She can't just admit that she grew her up for using her like an object and then come back to tell her she actually love her. It's all fucked up.

I'm looking outside of window to the full moon. Cool breeze hits my face as I see our mansion's pool having pure blue and stilled water.

This room brings so much memories. Whenever I came here, it doesn't matter what I was going through, this room always made me come out of it becuase of its good memories but now? Jen totally occupied me. I shouldn't be thinking about her this much. Why am I like this?

It's all her mistake. She's too kind, too sweet , too selfless, too caring. How am I not suppose to love her? How can a man ignore a girl like her? I tried to hold back.

I tried to tell myself that self harming is better option than to love a girl. What was I thinking? She took me out of that condition ! Now all I have is her. She's totally at fault!

I can't sleep, and tomorrow is the ritual. She doesn't know maybe? Should I go and tell her? What if she's asleep?

Real question - why I even care?!

I walk towards bed in frustration. I should do something to divert my mind. What should I do?

"Damian" I hear a soft voice coming from the door of my room. It's my mother ,she's also not asleep. Why is she still awake?

I walk to the door to open it and see my mother frowning worriedly while her eyes travel from down to upto my face.

"I heard your footsteps going back and forth continuously , what happened?" She says slowly , Jen's room is next to mine so she doesn't want to wake her up.

"Nothing, I'll sleep" I say but halfway of closing door of my room, she puts her hand on door, still looking at me - blocking me from closing it so I can't mind my own business.

The cool breeze now comes into my room faster from the open window which I forgot to close.

"Is it about Jen?" Her face is so sour. She's not so happy about me thinking about Jen at midnight.

"No, you always knew I'm not that kind of guy" I try to sound as arrogant as possible

"I'm your mother." There she goes. Playing mother card. I sigh in frustration

"Okay, what do you want?"

"Look Damian, Jen is a very kind girl" she whispers very slowly and in loving tone.
Well agreed!

"But she's a human"

Agreed as well.

I look at her now in confusion. What is she trying to say?

"Sara is better"

I look at her like she's out of her mind.