klance: don't kill yourself. [HIATUS]

"keith wait!"

8:30 pm

I was going to the building where I will jump. "the city tower" was its name. I leaved everything same, just my room cleaned and stuff. in the desk of my room I leaved also a note, I guess my "suicide" note for Shiro, Adam and my aunt; the only people that I care. in my note I wrote:

"it's not suicide, it's just the time and way how I'm going to heaven"

I closed the door and started to go to the big tower. I decided to go walking instead of taking a bus, just... you know, for say goodbye to the city. when I arrived to the building I sighed and, when nobody was looking, I entered and started to climbing the stairs.

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9:20 pm

I've BEEN CLIMBING UP THE FUCKING STAIRS FOR LIKE 10 mINUTES JESUS, the good news is that I finally arrived, it was a cold night, also, the sky was gray, "it seems like it's going to rain soon, ugh, cliché" I thought.
I was there, alone. the moment that I've been waiting for years now it's here, and I really... I was happy but... was I ready? for jump?... for say goodbye to nobody there? for just... die and say hello to dad? I didn't even know if I would see pa again. I realized, I wasn't ready, but I was there. I approached myself to the end of the building to the ground where I would fall but there was nothing, I was so high that I couldn't even see the floor, there was just a... void.

"there is no way back Keith"

I said when I started to regret a little and almost decide to get back to my house.

"no..."
I said, almost yelling.

"this is how I'm going to die, because when you're young yet, you can decide how to die. this is my way of death. THIS IS MY MOMENT TO DIE, BECAUSE I WANT, BECAUSE MY LIFE IS A FUCKING MESS THAT I CAN'T HOLD ANYMORE"

I was getting mad, I was having an internal fight in that moment between what I wanted and what I needed. I wanted to stay alive but I needed to die.

"if I... stay alive..."

I said, approaching myself to the end of the building again.

"if I die..."

why is life so hard? why is my life so hard? I started to feel the cold wind inside me and making me have a shiver. I looked up at the sky and I said.

"life is shit and then you die"

maybe I should've asked for help, but the reality was that I didn't want a therapist for help me, I wanted a friend. I had one, but then I lost him in some way. I saw my cellphone "9:45".

"it's time"

I said and I-

"KEITH WAIT!"

I heard a voice, a voice that I have heard before... the most beautiful voice... I turned my head and I saw him.

lance?

[[I TRIED TO MAKE IT DEEP AND I COULDN'T BC IM NOT ANGRY WITH LIFE RN FUCK, in fact I'm happy bc I have a party today of a girl that love so freaking much hehehehehehhehehe ALSO YESTERDAY I HAD A BASKETBALL MATCH WITH THE MOST MOTHERFUCKERS SLUTS IVE EVER PLAYED BEFORE. anyway, sorry for haven't been posting usually it's just that school has me rolling and running, fuck school y'all. love you, I hope y'all like it :)]]