Bus Ride on Winter

Little Scribbles

January 8th 2022

Felix is still unconscious, but I never lose hope that he would wake up, it's been a week already since he was diagnosed with a comma.

I went to that ice cream parlor that he loved earlier before coming here. It's ironic, the weather is cold but I'm eating something cold.

January 16th 2022

I wish I could take Felix a stroll around town, I wanted to comfort him, because earlier a tear slipped out of his left eye.

I always hated it when he cries.

January 27th 2022

The doctors said that even though he is unconscious, he can sense what is occuring around him, he can hear, smell and feel.

I have been talking to him for a week and four days now.

"Chan?" Jisung and Minho entered the room and sat on the couch that was stated at one side of the room.

Chan didn't make a move, but just stared at the unconscious Felix and held the younger's hand.

"Any signs that he may be awake?" Minho asked and Chan shrugged before silently sighing.

Jisung had looked at Chan many times, every week that he and Minho would go to the hospital and find Chan in the room, there is a Chan that is slowly changing his form.

He became skinnier by the day, he had dark circles under his eyes and he looked less lively.

"Chan-hyung," Jisung stood up from his seat, "why don't you take a break and we take it from here?" He suggested, but Chan didn't move.

Chan moved moments later, turning his head to Jisung and Minho with tired eyes, "I can take it from here, Jisung," Chan weakly smiled, "I am his boyfriend after all."

Jisung frowned, "Chan, listen to yourself," Jisung stepped forth, only to have Minho tug him backwards, "if it's anything you should worry about, it's yourself! Felix is alright with the nurses and doctors but you need to take care of yourself before Felix could gain consciousness!"

"Jisung is right," Minho added, "Felix will really be so sad if he would ever see your state right now, just look at you!"

"I know!" Chan yelled, but then his voice cracked, "I-I know..." Chan sighed and wiped away the tears that were threatening to fall, "I just want to be the first person that he sees when he wakes up."

Jisung and Minho exchanged a worried look and shifted their eyes at Chan, "Hyung," Minho sighed, "we know that, but you need to eat at the right time and get enough sleep."

Jisung and the others had already been helping Chan to get enough sleep and eat at the right time, and the others suggested that they would take turns in watching Felix.

Months rolled by, winter has ended and spring has arrived, Chan is riding the bus to Hyunjin's house since he's done from work and such, he heard the children saying that they miss Felix very much and Chan could feel the same with the children.

Chan missed Felix's smile, his laugh, his voice, his touch, his lips against his own and every little single thing about him that seemed so lively and so bright like the sun itself.

Chan went down from the bus as it made a stop near Hyunjin's place and headed there, he was met with Changbin that had went ahead of him hours ago.

Chan peeled off his shoes before proceeding to the bathroom to change into fresh and clean clothes and then he bid goodbye to Changbin and Hyunjin who were both at the kitchen.

Before Chan could close the door, Hyunjin came running in with a plastic bag, "Bring these for Jeongin and Seungmin," Hyunjin handed the bag of sandwiches and other food to Chan, "you have dinner with the two back there, I bet they're starving."

Chan smiled and went off with the bag of food.

February 10th 2022

It's been over a month since Felix had already been in a comma, and our feiends have been helping me a lot to regain my health and my usual state. I'm very thankful for them.

Chan was already about to get into the bus but he accidentally bumped into a girl and it shook Chan. Not because she was angry and all but she looked so much like him.

She looked like Felix.

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