Mayhem

Her over me...?!

Recap

"Daddy's going to make it up to you two for everything he's put you and your mommy through"I heard him say in a guilty tone

"I'm....I'm sorry..."He placed his lips on my stomach and not long after my sweatshirt began to dampen

"Angel"He whispered

"I had a dream that you.."

Angels POV

"That I..?"I asked confused as I moved from laying down to sitting up with his head resting in my lap

"I was standing in front of a closed casket but then I opened it....you were laying in it..."He said with a far way look in his eyes ,probably reliving the pain he experienced in his dream

"Your brothers all then appeared and started yelling that it was my fault..that I drove you to your...to your death"I leaned my forehead on his

"Shh"I silenced him from going further because I now I knew why he was so upset

"Damon"I kissed his forehead after I pulled mine away from his

"Your own guilt is going to do a lot more then I'd ever do for any kind of "revenge""I said with quotations around revenge

"I'm Mommy and your daddy that's all I'm focused on "He closed his eyes

"I don't deserve you ,the Twins or anything "I stroked his cheek

"The best thing you can do is forgive yourself,that's the only way the nightmares and guilt will stop "He opened his eyes and placed his hand on mine

"It's hard"He said

"I was able to forgive you"I stated

"And I still can't understand why"He pulled away from me completely and sat at the edge of the bed

"Angel I feel guilt looking,touching,talking...even feeling your warmth...everything I receive from you I feel guilty....so fucking guilty"I wrapped my arms around him

"Look at me"I backed up so he could turn to face me

"I forgave you,my brothers forgave you ,my kids forgave you,everyone forgave you so now it's your turn to forgive yourself "He hugged my waist

"I don't understand after the horrible shit life has thrown at you,your still a kind ,forgiving ,giving such a giving beautiful mom ,wife ,daughter,sister,aunt "He said in such a sincere and loved filled voice

"I've been giving an amazing family and that's all I need ,the other shit doesn't matter "I explained

"Can you slap me "He asked completely serious

"Kick me...hell Angel something physically violent "I laughed at how serious he was being

"Damon in case you haven't noticed violence isn't my answer to all my problems "He sighed

"It's sad that your so use to me being violent that you don't know what to do when I don't voluntarily attack you "I pulled him closer

"I love you"His eyes widen

"I love you"I repeated kissing his cheek

"And I love you"I said in a whisper as my lips melted against his

"I love you "I whispered after pulling away

"I know you haven't heard me say that a lot and that was my own fault "I bumped his nose with mine

"It was my lack of affection that caused our problems and I forgave myself for that so you can forgive yourself for acting on impulse"I smiled

"I promise to show you the attention you deserve more often "He shook his head

"It was selfish of me to demand your time when you were taking care of our kids and your family "He said

"It's not selfish for a husband to want his wife's attention ,what all this comes down too is we need to communicate more "I kissed him again

"Your my husband"I whispered as my lips landed on his again

"Mine"He smiled against my lips as what I thought was an innocent kiss turned into a very passionate and heated one

"Your husband"He said against my lips

"I"

He pushed me down on to the bed as he began to say something else against my lips .

"Love"

I wrapped my arms around his neck and my legs around his waist.

"You"

I pulled away which caused him to look at me confused.

"Not now"His head fell on to my neck

"Baby you could've maybe said that before we started making out"I laughed as I felt his...friend poke me

"Go shower you horn-dog"He kissed me one last time before walking to the bathroom hurriedly

Later that day

I smiled as I watched Quinn and Alesso jr play with Andrew with big smiles stretched across there faces .

"Mom"I heard Amelia's voice

"Baby what's wrong ?"I asked seeing her stressed expression

"Mom I'm so lost "She suddenly broke out into hysterics

"Harmony"I froze

"What?"I pushed as I led her to a bench

"She somehow convinced Zac that she's truly sorry ,he believes that she changed "She scoffed

"And you don't ?"I asked

"No because I know how a girl thinks and especially someone like her "I shook my head

"Did you talk gm Zac about how you feel ?"I asked a basic question

"He said to let it go "She scoffed

"I know for a fact she's lying "I looked at her

"How do you know ?"She looked away

"Because....because I do!!"She said frustrated

"Baby where's jimmy ?"I asked seeing she was starting to get worked up

"I don't know"She put her face in her hands

I was about to say something but spotted Zac walking out of the clubhouse.

"ZAC"I yelled he whipped his head in my direction and his eyes fell on to Amelia ,he sighed and began to walk our way

"Amelia I told you to drop it "He said as he stopped in front of us ,with a lot of attitude might I add

"Don't talk to her like that "I said looking at him

"Sorry mom"He looked at me apologetically before crouching down in front of Amelia who still hasn't looked up

"Amelia come on look at me "He rubbed her thigh

"You believe that lying bitch over me"She said as she looked up at him with anger and sadness in her voice

"Amelia...why don't you believe her ?"He ignored her statement and asked her a question

"Because unlike you I know her "She said as tears fell from her eyes

"I want proof"He said

"If you trusted me then you wouldn't need proof you'd just believe me"She said ,making a good point

"Amelia"