I'm Alive [CANCELED]

Chapter 23- Drunk and Angry

A.N.

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Collin's POV

I stumble up the doorstep of my childhood home.

After both my parents died, my sister Amber took over the house.

I open the door and call out to my sister.

"In here!" I hear here voice from the kitchen.

Once I'm in the doorway, Amber starts to talk without turning around.

"Training is canceled for 2 weeks."

"Wonderful." I slur.

What did I do? How could I have been so stupid? She's going to hate me now.

Anger takes over my entire body.

Ripping open the cabinet, I reach for a glass cup.

Raising it high above my head I slam it hard to the ground.

My arm swipes all of the glasses out of the cabinet, sending all out glass cups to the floor with a shatter. I start screaming from both pain and anger.

Once I'm done, my breathing is hard and heavy. Two seconds ago, the floor was clean and now glass shards liter the ground.

I look at my sister and notice she's leaning against the sink.

Her kind green eyes, hold fear that I've never seen before.

Is she afraid of me?

Well you did just break glass while screaming like a rabid animal...

"Collin?" Ambers asks shaking. "Are you alright?"

"She doesn't love me. I can't. She hates me... called me a monster." I mumble to myself.

That's when the ground comes closer and closer to me. Glass shards are cutting into my jeans and legs, but I don't really care. I don't care about anything.

Then just like a 4 year old, I start to sob.

I've never cried so hard.

Amber quickly registers my emotions and steps away from the sink. Towards me.

Not minding the glass, she kneels down next to me and takes me into her arms.

I continue to cry on the last bit of family I have left.

Here I am as an 18 year old crying on my sister.

"Why is she different then the rest of the girls?" Amber asks quietly.

I automatically think of her eyes. Of how much they resemble my own. The way she smiles at me or how she'd punch my arm when I'd mess up or say something stupid. Most of all, it's her laugh. How happy it makes me feel that I could make her sound like that.

Well not anymore.

"I don't know." I answer my sister.

"Hey," I say, composing myself. "I'm sorry about the glasses. I'll pick them up and buy new ones first thing tomorrow."

"It's fine. Just remember mom told us that 'Anger is Sadness in disguise.'. Never forget that." Amber says, getting up.

"Where are you going?" I ask her.

"I'll be in my room if you need anything. It seems you need a little time to yourself. Besides, I can tell you're drunk. Sober up a bit and then we can talk some more. Pick up the glass too for me please." Amber says.

Before Amber could shut her door I call out her name again.

She stops.

"Do you think she'll ever forgive me?" I ask weakly.

Amber sighs.

"Depends on how bad you really screwed up." Amber says finally, then shuts her door.

I get up off the ground, grab the broom from out of the closet and start to sweep with Katilynn's last words to me stuck in my head.