if you're going to fall in love with me,
here are some of the things
you should know beforehand.
i cry often.
whether it's during a movie,
a sad song on the radio,
or a regular sunday morning.
i'll cry even when i speak
of things that have hurt me,
even if they no longer hurt anymore.
i am afraid of being left,
given up on,
or forgotten.
i am afraid of not being good enough.
i will tell you the ways
in which i hate myself,
and not believe a single word
you say when you disagree
with each and every reason.
you can tell me you love me
countless times
but i will still be afraid
of you leaving me.
don't blame yourself.
i have to expect the worst,
because i always got the worst.
when i fall in love with you,
i will fall in love with
the way you look when you're asleep,
the way your mouth curves
when you say my name.
i can be difficult to love, but for me,
loving you will always be so easy.
all i ask is that you don't give up on me,
and in return, i will never
give up on you.
i will love you with my entire heart.
and if one day, you decide to leave,
i will still think highly of you.
i will still remember the
kind-hearted person you are.
