Broken- Jamilton ✔️

Fainting on sight

Alexander (trigger warning ⚠️)
I ran to the bathroom wanting to relieve myself (not like that ya nasties) I was panicking and I knew I needed to cut badly, I walked into the bathroom and made sure no one was in there. I walked to the counter and pulled my razor out the small compartment and held it over my wrist. "I'm so worthless..." I murmured as I cut along my wrist which caused me to hiss and mumble about how worthless I am " no one loves me..." "I'm ugly..." "I'm fat..." "I'm a disappointment..." I stopped cutting once I felt the blood rushing from my body and onto the counter and into the sink. I tried to clean up the mess but my head was spinning to much and I wasn't seeing straight, I stumbled all over the place until I hit the floor. Everything was faded and it all turned into a bunch of fuzz, I tried to call someone but my mouth wasn't working for me. I wanted to call someone but I was going through such blissful moment, I let out a sigh and I fainted the darkness consuming me

Thomas
I was sitting in my classroom panicking, I was worried about Alex. I felt bad about pushing him I was just irritated about the debate we had. I was glancing at the clock hoping that the time would go faster but it seemed to go slower, guilt flowed into my body as I lightly bounced my leg. I quickly took out my phone and texted him

Macaronifucker: hey Alex...you ok?

Macaronifucker: Alex?

Macaronifucker: Alex?!

Macaronifucker: Alex, what happened?! Are you ok?! Why aren't you responding?!

I quickly shut my phone off as I get up and walk out the class which caused my teacher to call after me but I continued walking. I checked the janitor's closet, the cafeteria, the band room, the teachers lounge. He wasn't in either of those places, I felt my blood run cold as I panicked; where is he?! He couldn't have left?! Did he?!; I walked down the hallway to the bathrooms, I walked in and saw something I will never forget. " Alex?!" I yelled as I ran to him and scooped him up in my arms, he was terribly pale and lying in his own blood. I was panicking as my breathing came out in a rapid pace I quickly picked
him up and carried him out the bathroom. I walked outside and placed him in my car, I took out my phone and called James " James..." "I-I need your help..." "no I'm not ok! James please!" "I need you and the guys to come to the hospital..." "not for me ju-! Please come..." "ok...bye" I hung up the phone and looked back at Alex's limp body, I felt tears rush to my eyes the longer I stared at him. I quickly get in the car and begin my journey to the hospital

~Time skip~

Alexander
I woke up with a killer headache and blinding lights, my eyes finally adjusted to the lights and I looked around and took in my surroundings; the hospital...; I looked down at my arms to see they are fully bandaged, my eyes had trailed to the cord attached to my arm. I slowly followed the cord to a pouch of blood; oh...; I slowly sat up hissing slightly as I threw my legs over the bed and got up. I grabbed the stand and proceed to walk towards the door, I opened the door and walked out, there was some nurses here and there but I was looking for a doctor. When I finally came across one I walked up to him and tapped him on the shoulder " hm?" He turned around when he saw me his eyes widened " Mr. Hamilton?! What are you doing up?!" He asked bewildered; am I supposed to be up; "I woke up and I decided to walk around" I said my voice kinda raspy " oh...well...I guess that's acceptable. How are you feeling?" He asked as he took out his check list " I'm a little light headed, but I'm ok" I answered truthfully "ok. Did you take your medicine?" He asked without looking up from his board, I felt my blood run cold when he asked that question "w-what m-m-medicine?" I asked acting as if I was bewildered " it says here you take anxiety pills, anti-depression pills and several more. Do you still have them?" I felt a lump form in my throat as my mouth became dry " um...no. I-I recently ran out a-a-and I've b-b-been trying to go w-w-without it but I've been having n-n-nightmares that cause me to have p-p-panic attacks a-a-and my anxiety attacks have g-g-gotten worse t-till the point where they h-h-happen in public a-and I just-" I started stuttering which caused my words to jumble together, I took a step back from the doctor as he called my name "Mr. Hamilton, are you ok" he asked taking an unsure step towards me "n-n-n-n-no p-p-please...." I took another step back as I begin to hyperventilate "Mr. Hamilton, I need you to come with me" the doctor quickly grabbed my hand and pulled me to my room, my vision begin to get blurry as I sat on my bed as my breathing came out uneven "Mr. Hamilton, you need to calm down before you pass out again" he said in stern yet soft voice " I-I-I-I c-c-can't" I stated as I clutched my stomach, one thing about me is when I have these moments I tend to throw up "you need to breathe; in and out...steady breathing will help" he said calmly but the fluids were already coming up. I quickly grabbed the trash can and I threw up, it was only some stomach acid and blood. My hearing turned fuzzy and I became lightheaded, I fell back on the bed as everything starts to spin. I then fell conscious.....

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Bonjour Mes Amies!! It's ya girl the author. Here's another chapter, I hope you enjoy it and once again I'm sorry for the long update. I've been busy.... (school and other bullcrap) anyways I'll see you guys in the next one. Bon-Voyage!!❤️🥐🇫🇷🐢

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