Broken- Jamilton ✔️

a very crappy chapter *trigger warning*

Alexander
It's been two days since I was in the hospital, I've been good the rev squad comes over; we joke around for a bit before doing our homework we're kinda crazy but I'm a fun way; and gives me my school work and helps me with it. Martha and George come over and we talk for a bit and they tell me funny stories; mostly about stuffed that happened to them but it's still funny; , Thomas comes over and we talk about random shit that comes into mind; we one time talked about gummy bears...weird right?; . He also sneaks in food for me because we all know the hospital food sucks ass. Now I'm just sitting in my bed finishing up my last bit of homework and taking notes, I felt this nagging feeling in the back of my head but I tried to ignore it. My arms soon started to twitch and my breathing started to pick up, I wanted to call a nurse and tell them I need my medicine but I haven't done it for so long I just wanted to feel it for today. I quickly get up and walk around the room looking something anything at least. I continue to walk until I find a small knife; do I really want to do this...I've been getting better...but I want to I need to; . I walk towards the bathroom and close the door behind me, I grip the knife over my wrist as I held it over the sink. I quickly placed the knife on my wrist and began to cut, I make deep cuts, small cuts, and long cuts I feel the relief run through my body as the blood poured out of the cuts.  I soon felt light headed and began to clean up, once I was finished I began to walk out the bathroom and to put the knife back. I sat back in the bed wincing as the cuts pushed against the covers, I grabbed the red button that allows me to call a nurse without leaving the room. I quickly called in the nurse that was assigned to me, she came in a few minutes later with a worried look. "What seems to be the probable Mr. Hamilton?" She asked walking towards me "I-I need m-my medicine..." I said quietly as my arms aches all over "Mr. Hamilton...may I see your arm please?" She said giving me a pitiful look; not this again...; I held my arm out to her as she looked at my arm with tears in her eye "h-how did you?" She asked immediately taking out the alcohol wipes and bandages " I-I f-found a k-k-knife and u-used t-that" I said wincing every once in a while " Mr. Hamilton you can't keep doing this, if you want to get better you have to stop" she said as she wrapped my arms up " I-I know b-b-but..." I started but stopped as tears streamed down my face; she's right...I need to stop but the urge is there waiting to be released;

Thomas
I quickly left out of my school as soon as the bell rang and I ran to the hospital. As I was still walking to the hospital I got a call from jemmy "hey jemmy!" I yelled into the phone which caused him to groan "hey Thomas...where are you?" He asked,"I'm headin' to the hospital" I said as I walked into the cafe; basically they remember my order so I didn't have to tell them; "the usual?" The cashier said "yup" I said "wait, where are you now?" Jemmy asked "the cafe. Why?" I asked as I went and sat down "oh..." he said as it went silent on the other line as other voices were exchanged "hey whose that?" I asked "hey Thomas" I very cheerful voice said "what the-who the fuck are you?!" I whispered yelled "I thought you knew me Thomas" the voice said sounding sad "I don't know you!! Where's jemmy?!" I asked as I got up and got my order, I paid and left the cafe " don't worry Thomas, he's ok" the person reassured "oh yeah, how do I know that?!" I said getting defensive " because I'm his boyfriend. I wouldn't hurt him even if my life depended on it" the person said I can hear a faint 'aw' come from jemmy  "wait wha....Laurens what the fuck?!" I yelled into the phone as he started laughing "why would you do that?!" I asked as I glared at my phone "dude I can practically feel your glare!" He said as he continued to laugh " so you guys go out now?" I asked, it went silent on the other end "yeah we go out" Laurens said I can basically see his smirk from here and Jemmy's blushing face "congratulations!! See I told you he liked you jemmy" I said feeling happy for my two friends. "Thomas!!" Jemmy yelled as Laurens whispers "you talked 'bout me? What all did you say?" He asked with chuckle "oh he said a LOT, he talks about how he wanted to kiss you, touch your hair, cuddle you and a bunch more" I said "Thomas....stop" Jemmy whined as Laurens chuckled "Hey Thomas we'll call you later" Laurens said into the phone "oof. Alright see y'all later" I said as they hung up "there definitely gonna fuck" I said to myself as I walked into the hospital "Hey sally" I said I walked passed her desk " hello Mr. Jefferson" she said looking up from her paper work, I signaled that I was going up and she nodded her head and went back to work.

*time skip;like three minutes passed;*

Alexander
I was sitting in my bed feeling very disappointed, I feel like every time I get better I ruin it. I scratched at my now bandage arms feel them itch from the scars, I desperately wanted to claw at my arms to make the feeling go away but I would only make it worse; I want to see Thomas...; I threw my head back against the somewhat stiff and fluffy pillows, I let my eyes close as I drifted from the world we know and from a place we could never imagine. I let out a quiet sigh as I planned to stay like this; when will they bring my medicine?; I let out a groan as someone knocked on the door "come in" I yelled as I felt displeased with them disturbing me, "well good afternoon to you too" Thomas said as he walked in "Thomas!!" I particularly yelled as I engulfed him in a hug "hi darlin' " he said while hugging me back, I felt myself smile brightly. "How are you??" Thomas said while sitting down and handing me the bag of food "I...um..." I said looking down not meeting his gaze "Alex" he said sternly, I slowly held my arm out to him so he could see the bandages " Alex-" he started " I-I know I shouldn't have b-but I couldn't resist it" I said quietly "Alex, you were starting to get better please don't start back" he said his sounding desperate, I looked up at Thomas to see him looking at me with pleading eyes "I-I-I'm sorry" I said my voice shaking "it's ok Alex, just eat your food" he said with a sigh as he leaned back against the chair, I frowned slightly as I opened the bag and began to eat. I had finished eating and Thomas still had his hand over his face while slouching in the chair, I wanted to reach over and tap him but I didn't want to disturb him. I quickly sat in the bed and looked around the room I kept glancing at Thomas to see if he changed but he was still in the same position "ugh!!!" I yelled out of no where Thomas had visible jumped and stared at me with wide eyes "what the hell?" He said confused " I should be the one saying what the hell?! Why are you ignoring me?!" I yelled "I'm-" he started "no the fuck you're not!! If you were sorry you wouldn't have done it!! Now let's see how you like it!" I sneered as I looked away from him "wait no Alex" he said as he let out a sigh "I'm sorry, I was thinking..." he said as he rubbed his neck "you came here at 6 o'clock on the dot it's fucking 9 o'clock Thomas" I said giving him a glare "oh...I've been thinking that long" he said sheepishly, all I did was glare at him and looked away; I swear to god...he WILL be the death of me;

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Bonjour mes amies!!! It's ya girl, here's another chapter. I hope you enjoy it also.......laurmads is finally a couple yassss!!! *ahem* anyways, I hoped you enjoyed this chapter and I'll see y'all (and your lovely faces) in the next chapter. Bon-voyage!!👋🏽🇫🇷🐢❤️