LGBT+ Feels

hostage- kevin and aaron

i wanna be alone

alone with you - does that make sense?

kevin loved to be alone, but he always felt better when aaron was alone with him. they'd rest in each others arms, thinking of any and everything and just whisper to one another.

to anyone else, it didn't make sense, but that didn't matter to them. no one else mattered.

i wanna steal your soul

and hide you in my treasure chest

kevin wanted aaron all to himself. he wished he could hide him from the world, but he knew how unhealthy that sounded and aaron's career wouldn't go far if he did.

though, aaron was his one. the one he loved more than anything. the one who he'd give his all to. the world truly didn't deserve him.

i don't know what to do

to do with your kiss on my neck

it was when aaron left his side that kevin noticed the wrong in their situation. they were best friends and the love they shared seemed to be almost obsessive. that's all they were, just best friends, until they were together and their lips locked.

then, aaron would walk out the door again and kevin would make his way to the mirror to examine the imprints on his neck.

i don't know what feels true

but this feels right so stay a sec

yeah, you feel right so stay a sec

when kevin started to notice the wrong to this, aaron would be back again and those thoughts disappeared. in those hours, it was just them and kevin realized how much he didn't want aaron to leave. they fit in each others arms and their lips collided together in perfect harmony. they felt.. right.

and let me crawl inside your veins

i'll build a wall, give you a ball and chain

it was an on and off thing between them. one minute kevin would be all over him and the next, he'd push him away, but so desperately wanted him back. it seemed toxic, but kevin was scared.

he'd often sit at home, running his hands through this shaggy black hair furiously and shiver without the touch of his best friend. aaron had the utmost respect towards him and stayed away when shoved. though, kevin wanted aaron to break through the wall he put up and come back to him. 

it's not like me to be so mean

you're all i wanted

aaron was so faultless to kevin. from his perfectly set brunette hair, to his soft tan skin. even the way he dressed made his tall figure look so beautiful in every way. it was getting too much for kevin to deal with.

at work he'd only had aaron on his mind and his workers would get agitated with him. he was his every thought when waking up in the morning and laying to sleep at night. he didn't mean to be so rude and confusing.

just let me hold you

like a hostage

loving someone so much is dangerous. the heart is hurt and your mind spins circles as you think of only them. they're your everything and one minute they can be your nothing. this thought made kevin decide after work to call aaron after the long week they had apart.

"hey, mr. businessman. i guess you've been pretty busy running that company of yours, huh?" aaron spoke when he immediately picked up.

kevin didn't hold back his smile that reached his dark brown eyes as he shoved his suit jacket from his arms. "and perhaps i have been, mr. actor."

aaron scoffed, "i've yet to land a role," he said, before adding, "what have i done to be blessed with a call from you?"

he bit his lip, putting sweatpants on to replace his suit. "miss you," he muttered into the phone. he could hear aaron's sharp inhale and was anxious for a second.

"you don't know how long i've waited to hear those words, kev," aaron whispered, making shivers go down his spine. "i'll be over in ten."

kevin barely registered the sentenced until he realized that his best friend had hung the phone up and was on his way to his studio apartment. he waiting patiently in his bed, his lean body trembling from the lack of aaron's touch.

he just laid there, waiting to hear the jingle of the key he gave aaron and the struggle the dumbass always had when he tried to open the door. it was more than ten minutes and kevin felt impatient.

aaron knew of his uneasiness and usually rushed to him, even breaking the stupid laws just to make kevin feel okay. the time passed slower than usual, but he jumped up from his laying position when he heard the familiar sound and smiled as aaron huffed, slamming the door shut and trudging over to his open bedroom door.

"what did i say about slamming my door?" kevin asked, eyeing aaron's shivering body. he smiled as the younger man made his way over to him, sitting closer than he should've.

"God, you're such a pain in my ass, kev. i picked you up some mcdonald's, so shut your pissy mouth," he spit out, hiding his smirk as he threw the bag at his face.

kevin slapped it away before he could get hit. "i told you i'm on a diet," he retorted, but grinned at the man in front of him. "i love you."

"i love you more," aaron said, leaning in and kissing his cheek. "stop stress working out, bubby, i'm here now," he whispered, tracing his jaw with his thumb.

kevin couldn't help but grin, shoving his body into aaron's arms. aaron laughed as he fell back on the bed and held him like he was his prized possession.

and kevin didn't know it, but aaron wanted him all to himself too. he wanted to hold him in his arms forever and shield him from everyone, because no one, not even him, deserved to see the beauty that kevin held inside his heart.