CPR

Chapter 10

"Ummm this game cheating." I said shooting at the zombies. "Nah you just suck." She said laughing at me getting ate by the zombies. We were at main event playing games because it was obvious that we missed the movies. We walked over to the other games and went to the basketball one. She swiped the card and we started shooting. "Ow!" I said rubbing my head laughing. Her ball bounced back off the goal hitting me in the head. "I'm sorrrrryyy." She said rubbing my head before kissing it. "She's sooo cute." I thought to myself. After playing ball we went into the photo booth. We played around with the background then the timer started going off. "WAIT WE NOT READY." I said trying to hurry up and position myself for the picture. The flash went off taking a picture. "Noooo I look rough right now." I said covering my face. It took two more and we left the booth to get our picture. Tyun picked it up and we stared at them and bust into laughter. "We look crazy." I said covering myself on the picture. she moved it away, "Nah you look good". She said looking at me licking her lips. I looked away quick and walked off as she followed me laughing shaking her head. After playing some more games we got hungry so we sat down to get something to eat. We sat down at the booth and took videos and talked more about nothing really, just enjoying each other's company. The server finally came over to us after waiting forever and took our order. We got some nachos with chicken and jalapeños. After about 30 minutes we decided to go back home.

I walked in my room growing sad because I saw her grabbing her stuff getting ready to leave. I pouted as she bent down to give me a kiss. She pecked my lips, "Nooo I want moreeee." I said whining grabbing her face giving her more soft kisses. I held on to her waist trying to stop her from leaving. She held me," I have to go baby." She said looking down at me. My heart felt warm when she called me that. I finally let her go and walked her out. I gave her one last kiss before closing the door and locking it. I pulled out my phone about to text her saying let me know when she makes it home until I came across the unread message my bestfriend sent to me 2 hours ago. I reread it again as tears started to form in my eyes. I just stared at the message feeling hurt and betrayed. "How could she do this to me?" I said to myself growing angry. Cathy sent a message to me basically saying we not bestfriends no more and that I needed to move out. I felt like this was something that needed to be talked about in person not over text. She could've at least waited until she came home. I raned into the room and started packing anything and throwing my belongings into a bag. I grabbed my clothes off the hanger with tears running down my face. I threw on a grey hoodie and put a pink scarf on my head. I stuffed as much as I could into the bags and left the house getting into my car. I sat there in silence for a minute wiping my tears getting myself together. I drove off into the street almost hitting a car. They honked at me, "FUCK YOU!" I yelled flicking them off. I drove and stopped at a red light, "alright evoni where we going." I said to myself as I sat at the light waiting for it to turn. I drove  for a good 10 minutes and finally came to a stop. I looked up realizing where I was....I drove all the way to my moms house. I sat in the car staring at the rain. "What am I going to tell her?" I thought to myself. The last place I wanted to be was here. I haven't spoken to or seen my mom in over 6 months. I stepped out the car and walked up the steps slowly as the rain hit my face. I reached the door and took a long breath before knocking. No answer. I knocked a couple more times but nothing.  I sighed and went around to the back of the slide door. I pushed it and by my surprise it opened. "She always have this door locked." I said to myself. I walked into the dark house creeping up stairs. I kept going and took a pause when I heard movement in one of the rooms. Someone was here but I didn't know if it was her or not. I then started hearing a bang and a sniff following along it. I creeped up the steps all the way and and I saw my mothers room door slightly opened but enough for me to see who's inside. I peeped inside and my mouth dropped from what I was seeing. I held my hand to my mouth as tears started to form. My mother chopped up the white substance some more with a blade and formed it into a line. She then leaned down and sniffed the white substance into her nose as she leaned her head back and her eyes rolled back. She started wiping her nose as she sniffed some more. I started to back away from the door as tears came down my eyes in disbelief from what I saw. I then ran down the steps and out the slide the door and back into my car. I put my head on my steering wheel and started letting out soft cries that eventually turned into loud ones. After about 10 minutes from crying my eyes out I wiped my face with my hoodie and started my car. I called Lavae as I pulled out the drive way of my moms home. "Hello?" She answered sounding sleepy. "I'm sorry to bother you but bu-.." my voice cracked as I tried to hold back my tears. "I need a place to stay tonight." I told her. "Of course! The door will be unlocked when you get here." She said. I thanked her and hung up the phone. I drove and turned my radio on trying to get out of my thoughts. I finally arrived at Lavae's house. I got out the car and went upstairs walking into her home. She had blankets for me and even some sleep wear on the sofa.  I smiled as I grabbed the sleep attire and went into the bathroom. I took a quick shower and brushed my teeth and headed back to the living room where I saw Lavae. She was sitting at the table waiting for me. "You good?" She asked taking her eyes off her phone. I shook my head yes as I sat down on the sofa. "You wanna talk about it or no?" She asked. I looked at her and said no quietly as I looked down. She understood and went back to her room. I got comfortable on the sofa and layed my head down. I thought about everything that happened to me last night. I went from being the happiest person to this. My joy was snatched quick just like that and I didn't understand it. I thought of my mom again and felt a tear. Out of everything that hurt me the most. She was doing drugs again. When I was younger in like the second grade my mom was doing drugs. She left me with my grandma for about a year to get better. During the time she left and came back I became a trouble kid. I stayed getting into fights and getting in trouble in school, I even got expelled. I didn't know how to handle not having my parents in my life I was a hurt and a damaged kid. My dad was in and out of jail and my mom was on drugs so what was I supposed to do? Everything around me was toxic, I wasn't raised like a regular child should have been. I didn't have a childhood. During the time I was living with my grandma I was being touched by my cousins boyfriend. My cousins lived with us to and so did her boyfriend. When I would come home from school he would be the only one there and almost everyday for 7 months he would take advantage of me. I didn't know wrong from right so I thought it was okay but I knew deep down inside it didn't feel right. Around 12 I tried to tell my family what happened but no one believed me. My mom knew about him molesting me but she didnt do anything about it. She was being in denial that it happened and she still is till this day. My family and my own parents broke me before anyone else could. I've been holding on to this hurt since I was a kid and I never dealt with it like I was supposed too. I was still damaged and all of this just brought back memories...deep dark memories and secrets that nobody else knew about but me and my mom.  I felt myself becoming sleepy. I checked my phone looking at the time, it was 3:35 am. I had two unread messages from tyun..

Tyun:I enjoyed spending time with you today 😌 12:41 am

Tyun:You good? 2:14 am

I sighed and locked my phone putting it under my pillow. I ended up dozing off going to sleep.