expecting; percico

031

a/n: i just want to apologize for the tears i may or may not cause you guys in this chapter.

Shane had stopped by once to give Percy and Nico an update. It wasn't even an update, more of a 'Okay, she's in surgery, prepped, and Kate's about to open her up for surgery' Nico knew it was supposed to be reassuring, but in all honesty, it scared the Hades out of him.

After that point, it was once again, just a lot of waiting. Nico, having experience with depression before, knew he didn't want to fall back into the deep hole he was once in. So, Percy and Nico both decided that fresh air might do them some good.

Hand in hand, they walked out. Nico felt oddly emotional. He was used to being able to bottle up his emotions, but this time he just couldn't seem to. He walked with Percy out of there room, down the halls, and so on, until they were outside.

Nico sighed, it was a bit painful to walk, but he was getting better at it.

It was silent for a bit as they walked around the sidewalk, it was a sunny day, but still kind of cold. It was November 2nd, so it should have been a lot colder. It was probably because of global warming.

There wasn't much to say, having each other there helped a lot in a way that they weren't really expected to say anything. They could silently think together while breathing in the cool air. There was a part in Nico's brain telling him that being outside was bad and they would miss updates

"It wasn't supposed to happen this way." Nico finally said.

"It never is," Percy sighed, his thumb making circles on Nico's hand.

Nico wanted to say more, but he didn't ever really voice his opinions. So, he stood in silence for a few more moments, wallowing in self pity. "I," Nico began, wanting to get something out, but at the same time, he didn't want to bother Percy with his thoughts. "If I had just done something different."

"No, Neeks," Percy began, looking at the Son of Hades. "Please don't do that to yourself, we both know there wasn't anything you could do. Out of the circumstances, you handled them perfectly."

Nico looked up at Percy, searching for a trace of a lie in his eyes, but Nico found nothing but honesty. "But -"

"Nico, please," Percy said. "I know me telling you not to won't help you. But no one blames you but yourself. Everyone else sees these crazy circumstances and sees the strong person you are."

Nico didn't know what to say. He just kind of stuttered for a while, before sighing in defeat, looking down at his feet as they continued walking down the sidewalk. "It's just - It's - I - It's - It sucks," Nico finally settled with.

"It sucks a lot," Percy agreed, "But I'm sure she'll make it."

Nico didn't believe him, and Nico also knew Percy didn't believe himself either. The son of Poseidon was simply trying to stay optimistic. Even being able spot the fact it was false reassurance, Nico chose not to say anything. Optimism is something they needed, and Nico sure wasn't going to be able to do it.

"Yeah," Nico simply said.

It was funny to some degree. For the past seven months, even when Nico wasn't sure of what would happen with his and Percy's relationship when he first got pregnant, he was still fantasizing when he was going to meet his child. He imagined the future he would have with them, some had Percy, and some sadder ones didn't. Then, when he dated Percy, all the thoughts were good. They lived in New Rome, Zoella went to school and made friends. They eventually got married, had grandchildren and grew old together, and now, all those dreams slowly started crumbling.